Hello Rabbi. I apologize for bothering you. I am an 18 year old girl and I plan to go on vacation to Florida with some friends. I have this fear of flying even though I have flown many times in the past, because I fear that I am no longer deserving of life. I didnt do any crazy sin like murdering or זנות I just fear that Hashem has written me down for death and I fear the plane will crash. I find myself constantly fearing God and punishment rather then balancing it with love as well. I started to learn Chovos Halevavos Sha'ar Bitachon, but I still fear God daily. How do I balance out my fear of Him with love for Him? Should I fear going on a plane? Thank you

Asked on December 8, 2020