G’mar Chatima Tova, I was not born Jewish, but I have a love for Jewish people and the Torah. I have a question. It’s hard for me to share, but I’ll try. I was sexually abused since age 5 and into my late teens. The abuser also did the same to quite a few of my friends growing up. I’m now 48 and still struggle with proper sexual conduct. I have never repeated the abuse as an adult, but my view of sex has always been a bit messed up. My questions are, was I an abuser in a past life? Will my horrific drawn out ordeal be taken into considered in my judgement regarding my own sexual misconduct like pgam habrit and acts of fornication? I have had some success, but still fall occasionally and am planning on getting married to a wonderful woman who knows my past. Thank you in advance for any advice.

Asked on September 27, 2020