Shiur Torah # 95 Wasting Seed, The Self-Made Physical & Spiritual Gehinom PART 1

0:01First, I'd like to thank Rabbi Zitron and HaRav Shmuley for arranging the shiur, Baruch Hashem. We had this whole tour of shiurei Torah this last week, every night, Baruch Hashem. A different shiur, a different location, a lot of chidushim, a lot of interesting things that Am Yisrael needs to find out because apparently, we're in a generation... On one end, we're in yemei Mashiach, we're at the end of days, and you don't necessarily need to be too brilliant to realize that we're at the end of days. If you just look at the world around you, you watch the news for five minutes, you realize that the world is not the same anymore if you want to watch the political world. You notice that in Gemara Masechet Sotah, page 49, it gives you a list of things that are going to happen at the end of times. Things that are going to happen right before the Mashiach shows up. I did a shiur about this on Sunday in Staten Island in Or Torah. And it's mamash like that. We went over each one of the items on the list. And when you read it, it's like reading the newspaper.

1:28It's like reading the newspaper. Everything that the Chachamim said is going to happen, is happening. One of them is that the leaders of the world, the political leaders of the world, are going to go against the nation. Now generally, this is against logic because the politicians are people that don't just get their job; we have to vote for them. So... if we vote for them, then technically they should serve us. they should do things for our own interest, not for their interest. But as generation after generation, the corruption continues, it gets worse and worse. The only difference between today and, let's say, three or four hundred years ago, is that today they do it with a smile. Today they tell you that you’re a friend, please vote for me, vote for a change, and the next thing you know,

2:30doing everything in their power to destroy your life. One of the recent laws that was passed that's slowly but surely, if Hashem lets it happen, is going to destroy civilization and bring us back to the Sodom and Gomorrah stage is that they passed a law in the United States. Now, you have to allow children in public schools to use the bathroom that they feel most comfortable with, so if a boy feels comfortable in the girl's bathroom, he can go there. Hashav, what's the problem? No one actually thought that rape was going to increase as a result of this. I guess it's a chidush. You have to actually have an IQ above five to know that this is going to increase crime. This is why several states, I think it's eight different states, actually have an IQ above five and they realize this is going to happen, so they're suing the government. What's going to happen? We don't know. you're seeing little by little, society is changing. Less than a year ago, they also passed a law wanting to remove the Ten Commandments. There was a statue of the Ten Commandments in a government building, and they wanted to remove it. So we're not only removing logic from our lives, but drifting away from our values.

3:52We're also going to a place where we don't really think we need Hashem anymore. I would not be surprised if the next round of bills that the government prints is no longer going to say "In God We Trust." Instead, it might say, "Thanks to our hard work," "Thanks to the president," "Thanks to the stock market," or "Thanks to whoever else they come up with," but not to God. Even though, technically, most people that read the dollar bill and they see "In God We Trust," they usually think that it means, "Oh, the dollar is god," because, unfortunately, in our society, most people do treat the dollar like it's a god. They chase the dollar more and more, like I did for much of my life, as if it is a god. So when you see that, and on the other hand, if you see the war that's happening in the world that's quiet... That's happening: thousands upon thousands of people being killed quietly. If you just look at what's happening in Syria and the civil war that's occurring, no one is mentioning that over 250,000 Syrian citizens died last year by their own government. No one seems to care; no one seems to think this is actually valid or important. And unless you actually look for it, you're not going to find it.

5:21So propaganda is increasing as well. The only thing you regularly see in the news is increased anti-Semitism. You're witnessing Hashem using His primary tool of anti-Semitism, which, if anyone wishes to observe, was initially created in Parashat Shemot. In the book of Shemot, the first parasha, It was the first time that anyone specifically went against the Jews. At that time, we were Israelites. But antisemitism in America, in a recent study, confirmed that at least 40% of Americans, our allies, consider themselves antisemitic. If our allies are such good friends, one can only wonder what our enemies think of us. But this is all Yad Hashem. This is all in the hands of Hashem. It has nothing to do with us. It has nothing to do with them. It has to do with our actions. But Hashem needs to use these tools. It's a hard topic for people to talk about. People don't like it. People don't like to talk about Germany and the Holocaust. But the reality of it is that this happens. This is Hashem. When someone asks, where was Hashem during the Holocaust?

6:45Very simple answer: He did it just like He created man in the beginning of time. He created the world, and He created the Torah 974 generations before He created the world. He also did this, nothing different. Why? Because of what He said in the Torah in last week's parashah. In America, we are a little bit of a lag behind Israel; we read Parashat... Parashat Bechukotai is one of two parshiot in the Torah that people often don't like to read. In our grandparents' generation and previously before that, these two parshiot, which are full of curses or punishments, used to be read extra loud. People would scream them instead of just reading them with the regular voice. voice that would actually yell them out as loud as possible. Why? Because fear of Hashem is a necessary foundation in order to believe in Him. If you have no yirah, you have nothing. Chazal say that a connection to Hashem that's only based on yirah is an incomplete connection.

8:09It's incomplete. It's good. It's a connection nonetheless. You're still getting some battery power. But it's incomplete. You're not going to get to full power. Your iPhone's going to get to 60%. But a connection to Hashem only based on ahava, only based on love, is no connection at all. It's impossible. There's no such thing. Why? Why does Chazal say it's impossible to just love Hashem and not fear Him? I love Hashem. Everyone thinks they love Hashem. You ask any person walking in the street, whether religious, non-religious, or even someone with little to no Jewish identity, do you love Hashem? They may say, yeah, of course, I love God. He's the best. Everyone loves God, except the atheists who have ironically formed their own belief system around not believing in anything, which is a different topic of its own. You ask religious people, non-religious people, everyone can say they love Hashem. It's very easy to say, "I love Hashem." But to show Hashem we love Him is a different story. Chazal says it's impossible to love Hashem without fearing Him. Why? Because you cannot love something when you don't know what it is, which means that if you knew just a little bit that we can know—we can't really understand Hashem—but the little bit that we can know through His Torah.

9:30of what He is, and what He's in control of, which is everything—whether it's the cells in your body, the speech that comes out of your mouth, the money that's in your pocket, the spouse you're going to marry, whether you're going to live another week or not, or whether you come into the world male or female, rich or poor—everything is in His power. When you realize He's in control of everything, how could you not fear? If I really believed that He is in control of every single thing that moves, every single thing that doesn't move, every single thing that I see, and every single thing that I don't see, everything, of course, I'm going to fear Him. Because I know that even if you want to look at it just scientifically, we said in last night's shiur, Every one of us has proteins in our body. Trillions and trillions and trillions of proteins. In order for your body to function, it requires these proteins. Everyone says, eat chicken, eat meat, you need protein. So, that's the source, but what do we do with these proteins? In your body, you have a vast number of proteins. But every one of these proteins needs to go through something called a protein fold. Meaning that they need to fold precisely in a way that's exact. And if they just miss a little bit, miss a little bit, like, for example, you know, you see this book. If I close it like this, then it's like that. But if you just throw it around, it can close in a little bit of a different way. It's still closed. Not the same with the protein fold.

10:58Meaning that they need to fold precisely in a way that's exact. And if they just miss a little bit, miss a little bit, like for example, you know, you see this book. If I close it like this, then it's like that. But if you just throw it around, it can close in a little bit of a different way. It's still closed. Not the same with the protein fold. If one of these proteins folds a little bit off, just a little, half a centimeter, half a millimeter, that's where disease comes from. Blindness, being crippled, not being able to breathe, not being able to move blood, not being able to function. Just one, not trillions, not five, not 500, one. Who's in charge? Who's in charge of folding all of these? The same Hashem. So if I know He's in charge of these protein folds that I never took, you know, never really cared about until now, I should be scared. So if I know just a little bit about Hashem, obviously, I have to be scared. Once I'm scared,

12:20because of the Almighty, then we can start a relationship. Then we can say, okay, now I know what I'm dealing with to some extent. Let's see what else You say. So He gave us a love letter. It's called the Torah. It gives us instructions. Torah in Hebrew also means "orah," which means instructions. Instructions on how to live, instructions on how to succeed, instructions on how to be happy, instructions on how to achieve eternal happiness, and also instructions on how to avoid eternal suffering. The same instructions. Instructions for everything. Everything and anything you could ever want, and it all has to have a source in the Torah. Whether it's a statement or a thought, anything must draw its origin from the Torah. As we know, "nothing new is created under the sun," as Kohelet has told us. Now, once we've started this relationship... In the Torah, anything and everything that has any good in it has to have a source in the Torah. Whether it's a statement or a thought, it must have a source in the Torah. Nothing new is created under the sun, as we are told. So now, once we've started this relationship...

13:24Fearing Hashem is the beginning. Eventually, that fear gets to a point where you start kind of liking Him too. Little by little, maybe you fall in love. But when you fall in love with your wife, b'ezrat Hashem, for anyone that's not married, may we have a zivug right away. Keep us away from sins and help us to do the first mitzvah in the Torah, p’ru u’rvu. We need more Jews. Fall in love, in the beginning, it's passionate, it's nice, it's amazing. But if you ask a newlywed couple how much they love each other, they'll tell you "a lot." How much do you know about each other? Not so much. Because you don't have experience. But if you ask an elderly rabbi, 75 or 80 years old, who has been with his wife for 60 years, "How much do you love your wife?" he might pause and reflect deeply, knowing that love has grown beyond the initial passion to a profound and indescribable bond. Such a relationship is built over years of shared experiences, challenges, and joys.

14:24Can't describe it. A lot? 60 years ago was a lot. A lot? What's a lot? She's part of me. How much do you know about your wife? Nothing. How do you know nothing? Because everything that I know about her is not enough because there's so much more to her. Discovering her anew over and over again, she's amazing. That's what you can see, mamash (really); you see the love between an old Rav and his wife is much, much better than a 20-year-old who just got married and thinks that he won the lottery. Why? Because the connection has moved from physical to spiritual. And a spiritual connection is eternal. And that takes time. So, little by little, we gain this love. But eventually we get to a stage of the highest level of Yirah, the highest level of fear of Hashem, which is not fear of punishment only, but fear of hurting the connection. Hurting the connection between us and Hashem. A person is not going to raise his voice to his wife, if he's a normal human being, not because he's afraid she's going to slap him, if she's a normal human being, hopefully she's not going to slap him.

15:44but because he fears that it's going to hurt the connection. Someone gets to a point where they don't want to sin, not because they fear that Hashem is going to punish them in this world, the next world, and all of these things. They fear that maybe I'm going to disconnect from Him. And anyone that knows even a little bit about connecting to Hashem knows that disconnecting from Him for even a minute is mamash gehinnom in this world. Without Hashem in your life, you have zero. I lived like that most of my life. And you only know the value of something when you don't have it. Once you get to the highest level of yirat Hashem, which is fearing hurting the connection, then you can begin to think about loving Hashem. Then, the highest level of Yirah, according to Chazal, is the beginning of loving Hashem. It's the beginning of Ahavat Hashem. So how come you hear so many teachers, rabbis, and so on, writing books and teaching about how you should love Hashem, love Hashem, love Hashem, love Hashem? I don't know. I can't really answer for all of them. All I can tell you is that it's an illusion for most people in our generation to start with loving Hashem. It's just not possible according to Chazal. Not me. It's not my opinion. Eventually, you can get there and eventually, you should get there, and that's what you're supposed to. However, one of the major issues we have in our generation today is that because we are constantly trying to fit in, we've become a politically correct society. In a politically correct society, you cannot find the truth.

17:07Eventually, you can get there, and eventually, you should get there, and that's what you're supposed to mesiras nefesh - sacrifice your life to get there. But nonetheless, one of the major issues we have in our generation today is that because we are constantly trying to fit in, we've become a politically correct society. In a politically correct society, you cannot find the truth, and in a politically correct society, you are... only find things that don't hurt people's feelings, so today's shiur is not just going to be about what I just talked about; that was just an intro. But it's really going to be about something that's a much more difficult topic that is often unspoken of in the English language. I only found this out when I looked for it myself; it's called "wasting seed." There's obviously other topics we'll throw in as well. But wasting seed, if you notice, anyone that watches Hebrew lectures online, there's a sea of them. A few really strong rabbis have told the people the truth, whether it's from the Zohar, Sifrei Chachamim, Gemara, Torah Shebichtav, many, many sources, which we'll go over many of them in detail. In the English language,

18:34Sadly, I became the third person to speak about it publicly just a few months ago. There's a shiur that I made, which is about an hour or so, a few months ago. It's very, very popular; I think it's my top shiur. There's Rabbi Alon Anava, who made a few small clips about it, 20 minutes, 30 minutes, and some others a little longer. And then there's Rabbi Mizrachi, who's been telling the truth for the last 22 years. He also has a few clips about this issue, and he has a shiur available discussing it. The fact that I've only been giving lectures for the last couple of years and I became the third one out of thousands of rabbis that speak the English language to address this, is sad. Why? Because according to Chazal, there's no sin greater. Obviously, there's Shabbat, but aside from that, There's no sin greater than Zera Levatalah. There's no sin greater than wasting seed. Chazal say, and we'll go over it with some sources, it's the equivalent of idol worship, including incest, including Chilul Hashem, and a few other severe sins.

19:58All together in one package. It's a nice package deal. Most people don't know this. Every teenager has this problem. Every guy that's in his 20s has this problem. In the 30s, many do. And this sin continues for generation after generation. And even sometimes people that are married, who don't know how to conduct themselves according to the Torah life, also have the same problem. So we're going to talk about this, and I'm going to provide you with some sources. But the first thing I'd like to provide you is a reason why rabbis don't talk about it from the Torah. Because Hashem, obviously in His infinite wisdom, wanted to give us information that's eternal. As it says in the Gemara, Masechet Megillah, although there have been over 1.2 million prophets throughout history... Only 55 are mentioned in the Tanakh: 48 males and 7 females. So we ask Hashem, why only 55? Was the Torah of the 1.2 million not good enough? What happened to them and to their prophecies? Perhaps we want to see it. The answer is that the prophecies of the 1.2 million, or the majority of them, were only relevant to their generations.

21:30We understand from here that the information we do have is relevant for eternity. No one can say that just because Moshe didn't have a car, that's the reason why he didn't drive on Shabbat. He didn't drive on Shabbat because it's not allowed. It's not allowed today. It wasn't allowed back then. It's never going to be allowed. So, the Conservatives, the Reform, and the fake religious who drive to the synagogue on Shabbat thinking they're doing a mitzvah should know this is a very, very big mistake. should know this is a very, very big mistake. You're better off staying home and never going to a synagogue one day in your life than turning on the car for half a second on Shabbat. I actually have one of my students who is in the car business. He is an engineer and sent me a very complex spreadsheet showing how many actual fires are being ignited every time you just press the gas, based on the RPMs of the car, based on how fast you're driving, and so on. The minimum, the minimum, the highest is tens of thousands, but the minimum, the first number that I see is 3,000, just by pressing the gas. Yeah, this is a problem, so one time you press the gas, you ignited 3,000 fires.

22:55By the way, it's 3,000 sins. It's 3,000 separate sins. It's not one sin. It's 3,000 separate sins. You press the brake. You press the gas. Somebody goes to Beit Knesset. They made 1.5 million aveirot. It's a little bit of a problem to show up to Olam Haba with that kind of account. Because in Olam Haba, there's two: the good one and the not-so-good one. Jeremiah told us some information that can help us today. Jeremiah tried, like all prophets, because the main job of a prophet is to do kiruv, to bring the nation back to Hashem, to wake them up, and to tell them the full story. Tell them the truth. Whether they do it or not is irrelevant. I'm going to tell you the truth today. Whether you listen or not is your choice. But at least you'll have a choice based on information. At least it will be an educated decision. Whether you sin or you don't sin, that's not my problem. But at least you'll know. And that's the one thing that someone took away from me. Many people took it away from me before I did teshuva. They never told me. I can't tell you that I would have listened to them. I was in a different world. I had millions and millions of dollars. I had a company to run. My ga'avah was a little bit higher than the earth. I can't tell you that I would have listened.

24:24but it's still a 50-50 shot. No one can tell me that I definitely wouldn't have, and I know myself that maybe I would, maybe I wouldn't. Either way, it's always a 50-50 shot, which means it's never your job, it's never your job to decide for people. There's a Gemara, There's a Divrei Chazal that says that if you know someone is not going to listen, it's better not to tell them because at least their sin is shogeg. It's not a big deal, you know, it's an accidental sin. This is a problem; this is a misunderstanding. Why? Because they also missed the Mishnah, which precedes it. Before, it's the beginning of the Oral Torah. And Pirkei Avot, everyone knows Pirkei Avot, no? You know Pirkei Avot? It says that a sin that's accidental, a shogeg, that comes from lack of learning, turns into mezid, turns into intentional. So you didn't know, fine you didn't know. You don't have to know, but you have to learn. You are commanded to learn. Now, if you didn't know because you didn't want to learn, then your sin is not shogeg.

25:49It's meizid. It's on purpose. There's no such thing as I could just show up to Hashem ignorant. No such thing. So all of these people, whether they call themselves rabbis or they call themselves something else, that are telling people, no, no, no, this whole generation is anussim, and it's full of people that are miskenim, and they don't know, and they're this, and they're that. Nonsense according to Hashem's information, it's 100% nonsense. You don't have to take my word for it; you can see it from the Torah itself. You learn it, and you're going to see it. We'll learn today, "Heal me, Hashem, and I will be healed. Save me, for You are my praise." Will be saved, for You are my praise, Jeremiah chapter 17 verse 14. What is Jeremiah telling us here? The background story of why Jeremiah is crying to Hashem is because Jeremiah tried to do kiruv, but kiruv the right way; he told the people the truth. He found...

27:20the tribe of Ephraim, wasting seed. Bunch of reshaim, wasting seed. And he rebuked them. Told them, this is the worst thing on earth. Are you crazy? Hashem said, this is guaranteed Gehinnom. This is avodah zarah. This is horrendous. This is going to kill you in this world and the next. They went against him. They went against him and tortured him. He says, "Hashem, heal me. They're torturing me. For what? I'm trying to do Your work. I'm trying to tell people the truth. This is what I get. These people are going against me. I'm trying to help them, and they're going against me." Just like people that watch some of my shiurim, they go against me also. Just like they've been doing it to Rav Yosef Mizrachi for 22 years or anyone that speaks the truth. They go against you. I have some people that actually take clips of my videos. And they write different descriptions. No, this is what he says. Actually, if you watch the video, there are very good clips. It's the truth. They just want to translate it in a different way. I actually use some of their clips for myself and I publicize them. They're good clips. You don't want to believe it? It's your choice. It's not my problem. I'm not making up anything. Everything comes from the Torah. If it's my opinion, I tell you it's my opinion. It's obvious it's my opinion.

28:46So Jeremiah did the same thing, but obviously, if I could be his toenail, I would be happy. But nonetheless, they were torturing him. How much were they torturing him? If we fast forward to chapter 20. Chapter 20, verse 14. Baruch Hashem. Cursed be the day on which I was born. May the day on which my mother bore me not be blessed. Jeremiah gets to the point where he curses the day he was born. How could someone so holy, so pure, so amazing, get to a point of cursing the day that he was born? The Midrash that was actually written by his son, Ben Sira, says that this was the day that the tribe of Ephraim didn't just go against Jeremiah, but they told him you have two choices. They surrounded him and overpowered him, so you have two choices.

29:49get to a point of cursing the day that he was born. The Midrash that was actually written by his son, Ben Sira, says that this was the day that the tribe of Ephraim didn't just go against Jeremiah. They told him, "You have two choices." They surrounded him, overpowered him, so you have two choices. You either waste seed just like us, right now, or you're going to see a real live Sodom and Gomorrah. And what they did in Sodom and Gomorrah, is the same thing they did in Tel Aviv just a few days ago with the gay parade. They threatened to rape him. So, after forcing him to waste zera, he was really considered an anus. He cursed the day that he was born. Why is it so bad? Why does Hashem care so much if we waste zera? In last week's parasha, Hashem gave us a little bit of a secret. There was a nice chidush I got that I think you'd like.

31:16After explaining each level of punishment, we see that there are five levels. It begins with the loss of our money, and at the last level, Hashem warns us, similar to what occurred during the times of the Beit HaMikdash, that in extreme cases of starvation, people would resort to eating their own children. This tragic event indeed took place during the destruction of the Beit HaMikdash. ...wasn't kidding, but if you notice before each section, each section of punishment, Hashem says the same thing. The translation is as follows: "If despite this"—meaning despite the punishment that I gave you in a previous level—"you will not be chastised towards Me," meaning you still don't have your chein... you still don't care, you're still sinning, and you behave casually with Me, then I too will behave towards you with casualness. As taught by Chazal, we select and choose whichever meets what we want to keep.

32:39Kosher? Yeah, you know what? I live in Brooklyn. There's a kosher place on every corner. It's not that hard to keep kosher. You have to really not want to eat kosher to eat non-kosher in Brooklyn. Different places around the world may be a little more difficult, but in today's world, it's pretty easy to eat kosher. Anyone with an ounce of emunah knows that Hashem pays for it anyway. But, Shabbat? Eh, not so sure. I'll keep half a Shabbat. Hashem should be happy I kept half a Shabbat. Wasting seed? Nah, that's not for me. That's for people who are machmirim. That's tzaddikim. I'm not at that level. Watching my eyes? Nah, that's for Rabbi Ovadia, Rabbi Steinman. Yeah, G'dolei HaDor. They watch their eyes—not for me. You know, you pick and choose. Netilat yadayim? Yeah, I can do that. Netilat yadayim. I can do netilat yadayim. Even when I get out of the bathroom, I do netilat yadayim. You pick and choose. Hashem says, you treat Me with casualness. You make a joke of My Torah.

33:41You think it's a choice to keep all the mitzvot. For that, there's a separate punishment. Violating my Torah is one punishment; treating it with casualness is a completely separate punishment. But now, what's the chiddush? He kept saying, Keri, for anyone who has learned a little bit of Gemara, also knows that it has another meaning. If we go to Sefer Devarim, Deuteronomy, chapter 23, verse 10, ki tetze machaneh al oyvecha v'nishmarta mikol davar ra, When the camp goes out against your enemies, you shall guard against anything evil. If there will be among you a man who will not be clean because of a nocturnal occurrence, he shall go outside the camp. He shall not enter the midst of the camp until evening. He shall immerse himself in the water, which means going to the mikveh, and when the sun sets, he may enter the midst of the camp. A nocturnal occurrence, meaning a seminal emission, is also referred to as keri.

35:07He shall go outside the camp; he shall not enter the midst of the camp. When it comes to evening, he shall immerse himself in water, meaning going to the mikveh. When the sun sets, he may enter the midst of the camp. A nocturnal occurrence, meaning a seminal emission, is also called keri. A valkyrie is someone that has a... Waste seed, but unintentionally. In common parlance, it's called having a wet dream. The Gemara in Masechet Avodah Zarah discusses this verse on page 20b. The Rabbis taught in a Baraita regarding this verse we just mentioned, which states, "And you shall beware of anything evil." This teaches that a person should not think immoral thoughts by day and thereby come to sin at night. When the Gemara mentions evil, it's not talking about thinking about bad things happening in the world, like maybe there's going to be a war or maybe I'm going to lose all my money in the stock market.

36:36Maybe my wife's cheating on me or is going to leave me. Maybe my husband hates me. Maybe my kids are going to fail at school. No, no, no. They're not talking about davar acher like that. Davar acher, Chazal says in the Gemara, is referring to thinking about something erotic, inappropriate. Why? Because he didn't guard his eyes. When he didn't guard his eyes, Of course, he's going to think of something erotic at night. So much so, that the Shulchan Aruch, or better said, the Mefarshim on the Shulchan Aruch, say that if someone has an erotic dream, even if the woman in his dream is his wife, he wakes up out of the dream, and he wants to be with his wife, Halacha states it is not allowed. Until he cools down and he doesn't have those thoughts anymore, then he can do what he wants, then he's a normal person again. Why? Because if he engages in relations with his wife at that moment when he's still heated from the dream, what can happen to the child? The child can have partial control by sheidim, by demons. Why? Because they contributed to making the child.

38:07Which, by the way, just so you know, according to Chazal, every single woman you see in your dreams, even if she looks like your wife, is actually none other than the Satan's wife herself. That's her job. Her job is to take your seed and create a multitude of soldiers to torment you in this world and the next. So when you give her that seed, you're creating an enemy for yourself. This is kind of scary. It's just the beginning. Can I ask you a question? In your dream, doesn't your soul actually leave your body in your sleep? Not all of it. If your entire soul left your body, you would die. It's only most of the soul. There's still a part of your soul that stays with you. And part of the soul goes up to Shamayim. and gets the news of what is the outcome for tomorrow, meaning that you go up there and you tell the Beit Din shel Maalah what you did today, and they'll tell you, "Okay, based on these deeds, tomorrow you're going to have a very difficult day."

39:21That's why you see sometimes people wake up, and nothing happened, but they're already in a bad mood. They woke up, they see their wife, she's happy, "Hey, how are you? Good morning, honey, how are you doing?" "Ah, don't talk to me." "What did I do?" You're already in a bad mood. Why? Because you got bad news from Shamayim. Your soul knows it. You don't know it consciously, but subconsciously you know it. You know you're gonna have a tough day. So now, when someone is having these dreams... It's their fault. There's no such thing as having these dreams just because. It's because you saw something, either during that day or during your life. But in general, it's usually during a recent time. According to the Gemara, Masechet Berachot, most dreams are complete nonsense. They have zero meaning. Once in a blue moon, someone can have a dream that could actually be a partial prophecy. But the ones that are nonsense, what's the nonsense? What does it mean nonsense? What's shtuyot? It's a combination of the things you saw. You saw an elephant today, so you're going to see a woman with an elephant head. You saw somebody running, you're going to see a little bunny running. You're going to see all types of strange things in a dream. They don't really make sense, but it's a combination of all the things you actually saw in your real life. If you looked at a pritzah, you looked at an immodest woman,

40:44That's what you're going to see. And sometimes you'll see her that you saw on the street, and sometimes the Satan, or the Satan's wife, will actually have your wife's face. So you're going to think, "Oh, you know what, I'm not making a scene; it's my own wife." It's not your wife. What happens at that point, Hashem, is even if you waste the seed, it's already a big problem. Even if you get out of the dream, you survived the dream, and you didn't waste seed. You're lucky. You see your wife right next to you, and your wife loves you and she wants to hug you. She has no clue what dream you had. You're not allowed to touch her. Not allowed to touch her. Why? Because according to the Ari HaKadosh, from whom we know most of the secrets of the Torah, he says that all of the crazy people, people who have mental problems, are usually controlled by shedim. They're usually controlled by demons. And that's why you see a lot of them say they see things, they hear things. They do. They're not imagining it. They do. They do see things. They do hear things. You can't see it because you're normal. But they do. Sometimes it's the fault of the parents. Sometimes it's a gilgul. Now, why does Hashem care so much about this keri?

42:09He tells us here that in this parashah, when he says, on one hand, it means treating me with casualness, right? It means with casualness. On the other hand, it says, not only did you sin, but you're still wasting seed? Okay, you didn't do that, fine, I got it. You didn’t say a bracha, you stole from me the food you ate. You didn’t say a bracha, you stole from Hashem. Anyone that enjoys anything in this world without saying a bracha, Chazal says they stole from Hashem. You have to say a bracha. If you didn't say a bracha, fine. You violated Shabbat, fine. You worshiped an idol, fine. You'll get your punishment for it. But not only did you do that, you still have the audacity to waste seed? Meaning it's at a different level. It's a different level. It's a different world. We've been discussing this for a while now. you still have the audacity to waste seed? Meaning it's at a different level. It's a different level. It's a different world. So far, we've been talking for a little while.