Don’t wait to make repentance!!!!!!! (7 minutes)

0:02But now I'm having the surgery. The selective surgery is supposed to give me a little bit of discomfort. Only now, on November 18th, 2006, I wake up from the surgery with a different body. My body changed forever. Something happened during the surgery that altered my nervous system. And everything from my neck all the way down to the bottom of my feet was in pain. But not pain like you have a headache, pain like if you take a knife and you just start cutting somebody open over and over and over again. A little bit like that. Oh, and there were also electric shocks too. We don't know why.

1:21I'm going to sleep. It's wonderful. Thank you very much everyone for coming. I'm going to sleep. I go to sleep and I wake up 45 minutes later. The only problem is that this time it's worse than the first time. And this time it does not stop. The screaming does not stop. Not after an hour. Not after a day. Not after a week. Not after two weeks. Not after five weeks. Only after 62 days. For 62 days, the screaming did not stop. For more than 15 minutes, I couldn't sleep. My body started dying. I started bleeding from my eyes and every hole in my body. I got infections everywhere, and no one could explain it. No one could explain the diagnosis. No one knew why I was screaming. And even later on, when I tried to file an insurance claim because I had a disability policy, they rejected me. After six months of research, they said it was impossible for that to happen. If you want the money, you have to sue us. I never sued them. Don't waste your time suing insurance companies. So after two months, 62 days of the wonderful experience of getting home, I eventually...

2:43Start getting back to my life. I'm only taking 20 painkillers a day instead of 50 or 60. Start managing. I'm able to walk to some extent from here to the door, which would take someone normal about 30 seconds, but it takes me about 30 to 40 minutes. But I'm managing. I go back to work. Life is not the same. But I figured that I got a second chance. I still don't do teshuva. Nine months pass because that's the amount of time that Hashem gave me to do teshuva. I don't respond. He gives me a pain in my leg. I think I pulled a muscle. The next day, I'm in an emergency room, an intensive care unit, undergoing a surgery that if I hadn't come at that time and had waited even another hour or two, the infection inside my body would have blown up, entered my bloodstream, and I would have died within hours. So, I spent the next two weeks in intensive care units next to people who are nearly dying. Some are actually dying. Their screams sound familiar to mine. After a few weeks, I'm released from the hospital. Lots of fun. I go back to the painkillers. I still don't do teshuva. Three months later,

4:07As you've noticed, the time keeps getting shorter. This is one of the signs from Hashem, when He's running out of patience for you. The signs, and the siyata dishmaya, slowly disappear. If you do teshuva when you're in your teens or early 20s, you have 90 to 100% siyata dishmaya. Doing teshuva is easy. The beginning is hard. Committing to Hashem is hard in the beginning. To be tested in the beginning. When you do teshuva, you have miracles on a daily basis, mamash miracles. And I'm not exaggerating. I'm not a prophet. I'm not anything. You do teshuva in your early 20s, you have siyata dishmaya that's unbelievable. slowly disappears. If you do teshuva when you're in your teens or early 20s, you have 90 to 100% siyata dishmaya. Doing teshuva is easy. The beginning is hard. Committing to Hashem is hard in the beginning. It's a test in the beginning. When you do teshuva, you witness miracles on a daily basis. Mamash miracles. And I'm not exaggerating. I'm not a prophet. I'm not anything. If you do teshuva in your early 20s, you have siyata dishmaya that's unbelievable. You don't do teshuva, you get to your thirties. Syata d'Shmaya gets lower. You're now down to about 70%, maybe 60%. It becomes a little more difficult to do teshuva, because without Hashem, it's nearly impossible to do teshuva. So with less Hashem, of course it's more difficult to do teshuva in your thirties. But then you have some, you still have 60-70%, it's still amazing.

5:19But you skip ahead. You find yourself in your 40s and 50s. Now you're down to maybe 40-50% Siyata Dishmaya. It's very difficult to do teshuva. You think, nah, I still have my fun times today. The 40s feel like the 30s. I still have more time to enjoy life. Then, you reach your 50s and 60s, and it becomes almost impossible. You're maybe at 20-25% Siyata Dishmaya. If you wait until your 70s, it's almost impossible for you to do teshuva. It's almost impossible. And even if you do teshuva, only a miracle will get you to a point to do a complete teshuva. Because doing teshuva takes time. You need to learn what to do. You can't do teshuva in one day like people think. "No, I'll do teshuva the day before I die." Isn't there a Gemara about that? Oh, it just means you should say sorry. It doesn't mean that you're actually going to get to Gan Eden because you said, "I'm sorry." It means maybe Hashem is going to give you less of a punishment. A few less million years in Gehinom. It doesn't actually mean you're going to Gan Eden because you said, "I'm sorry." Okay, maybe He'll give you a Gilgul, you get back to this world. But since we just talked about that we're at the end of times, who knows if there's going to be enough time for you to get back to this world. Don't rely on Gilgulim. Reincarnation is not exactly reliable anymore in our generation.

6:35Mashiach comes in five years. Mashiach comes in five weeks. Mashiach comes in five days. Somebody dies without doing teshuva. Even if he's born on that day, what's going to happen? He hasn't done teshuva. He's nothing. It takes time to do teshuva. Anyone who's done teshuva knows.