Shiur Torah # 95 Wasting Seed, The Self-Made Physical & Spiritual Gehinom PART 3

1:42Once, for the second time, the wives are going to love this one. When he's supposed to be intimate with his wife. When he's intimate with his wife, that's when the Satan comes into your mind and reminds you of what you saw today. So in essence, instead of being with your wife, you're thinking you're with someone else. If your wife actually knew, she'd probably divorce you on the spot. And there's actually a Chazal that says there's even a safek on the child that comes from that. If it's a mamzer, someone who is a poger brit should be very careful to protect themselves from dogs and anything dangerous, from weapons. Because he already has a category. He created so many demons that are going upstairs to Hashem, telling Him, "Look at this sinner, this rasha merusha, who's damaging your nation every day." He's causing harm to 300 million of them every day.

2:42When someone puts themselves in danger, that's usually when they go to Hashem, and Hashem is with them. That's why in Shabbat, in the Kabbalat Shabbat prayer, it says there are three reasons why a woman may die during childbirth. Three things. Why pregnancy? Why not just a regular day or Tuesday? Pregnancy is a dangerous time. Put yourself, you're in a dangerous time, that's when the neshama is going upstairs. You want to protect your wife? Protect your child. When a person, heaven forbid, experiences a miscarriage, meaning it went out, ...without necessarily him doing it. It stems from Kelipah of Lilith. Her name should be erased. I told you who that is already. Each one of these is about 30 of them. I'm just giving you the top picks. There are 80 pages.

4:11We'll keep this one for later. Nightmares. Anyone ever have nightmares? Now you know the source. Nightmares are usually controlled by demons. Demons are created by that, by Pegam HaBrit. Many of them. Many, many of them. Likutei Moharan, Part 2, Torah 5. For all you single guys looking for a zivug, sometimes because of the sin of p'gam ha'brit, a person can actually lose his destined wife, his zivug. When he was brought into this world, right before his neshama went into the little baby, Hashem already decided who his zivug is going to be. If you waste enough seed, you lower yourself, you lower your spiritual standing enough.

5:13Your zivug is going to go to an appropriate person, which is not you. Teshuvah is always open, Baruch Hashem. You bring yourself back up. That's the point of doing this shiur. Hashem knows. Don't worry. He created the heavens and the earth. He'll take care of that too. By fixing this sin, a person will find his destined wife. And on top of that, she will not be rebellious against him. Likutei Torah 87. Why is he mentioning she will not be rebellious against him? Because, like I told you, sometimes a person wakes up and his wife is mad at him, and he hasn't done anything yet. He just woke up. Why is she mad at him? Because our neshamah knows that he wasted seed. She can't see, but our neshamah knows.

6:49It says that wasting seed causes havoc in the spiritual worlds. What does that mean? Imagine a person is hired, not exactly a genius, to work at a nuclear plant. They don't need a genius; they just need somebody with a gun to make sure no one presses the red button. That's it. He doesn't know what the red button does. Tell him each shift is six months. You can't leave this building for six months. Fine. He gets the job. He sits there with his gun, talking to himself all day. Eventually, he sees the cleaning guy. "Hey, how you doing? How you doing?" They grab a drink. Which, by the way, Chazal say one of the major reasons why you're not allowed to drink on a regular basis, get drunk, is because it leads to wasting seed. This is Sefer Hamiddot 2, Shichrut. They hang out, have a few drinks. One day,

8:09The cleaning guy is like, "So what do you do? Just look at this button all day. What's this button do?" He said, "I don't know. They just say it's a big deal. You want to press it?" "Yeah, why not? Let's see, I think they're lying to me. I think they just want to waste my time and torture me in this cell for six months. So go on, let's press it." So he starts pressing it. The fool starts pressing it. He doesn't realize that each time he presses it, he launches a missile. A few hours later... A bunch of army men come inside with guns. Who's pressing the button? Who's destroying the world? Both of these drunk guys are on the floor laughing. And now they get the shock of their life. They're like, what? What are you talking about, destroying the world? We were just pressing the button. They're like, yes, you fool. Each time you launched a missile and killed 150 million people.

9:09That's wasting seed. That's Chilul Shabbat. You don't see the damage here right away. But in the spiritual world, you're destroying civilizations. When you arrive without teshuva, you'll see. And a person who did it without doing teshuva would know that the place he arrived at is the Gehinnom that he created for himself. It's no surprise.

10:13Rabbi Yochanan spoke up and said, all those who waste seed are punishable by death; it's karet. Rav Ami said, it is as if he sheds blood; it's murder. Rav Ashi says, it's as if he worships strange deities. Midrash HaGadol Vayeshev. Rav Acha bar Yasha said, whoever weighs seeds equates himself to an animal. Just like an animal does not care what it does, so too this person randomly commits to sin. Just like an animal is set aside to be slaughtered and does not receive life in the future world, so too this person stands to die and does not live in the future world. says, whoever wastes seed equates himself to an animal. Just like an animal does not care what it does, so too this person randomly commits to sin. Just like an animal is set aside to be slaughtered and does not receive life in the future world, so too this person stands to die and does not live in the future world. Midrash HaGadol Vayeshev Masechet Shabbat, Page 41. The major flaw of the generation of the flood, as we said, was that they wasted seed. The Rambam, aside from being a major sage, was also a doctor, a major chacham, from whom we have all of our halachot. He knew what he was doing.

11:43One that weighs seed, his old age jumps on them, meaning that they age much faster. At 18 years old, we look the same. At 25, he looks like he's 35. At 30, he looks like he's 49. At 40, he looks like he's 60. If he survives to 60, it would be a miracle. His strength leaves him, and his eyes go weak... and his eyes grow weak. You start losing your vision at a very young age. Bad breath pours out of his mouth regardless of how many times he brushes his teeth; he always has bad breath. This is very common in today's world. His hair and eyebrows fall out, and the hair of his legs and armpits becomes thick. and his teeth fall out or become weak. A lot of cavities. All of a sudden, when you were 18, you were a bull. By the time you were 25, you have worse teeth than your grandfather. What happened? You just took a shower, went outside for a half hour because of a little sweat. You sweat like, you know, you smell like you've worked a full day in a toxic plant.

13:15Many additional health problems occur. Shulchan Aruch 240, Rambam Deot. I mentioned the sources so you guys don't think I made this up just for the fun of scaring you. This will be a good one for the mothers to know. One who wastes seed, heaven forbid, his children will die young or end up as evil people. It also causes poverty, as stated in Kitzur Shulchan Aruch 151. If a wife hears this and finds out that her husband wasted seed for a second, she'd probably be livid. Touch a mother's children, you're playing with fire. That's why Rabbi Yochanan, when his students came to him on his deathbed, he offered them advice that was meant to resonate deeply with them for the rest of their lives. He said, "Rabbi, give us something, give us some insight that we could take with us forever." He replied, "May you be as scared of Hashem as much as you're scared of man." What? Is it not supposed to be the opposite, no? Unfortunately, most of us don't truly have Yirat Shamayim. We're scared of men, scared of the cops at 3 o'clock in the morning who are pulling us over.

14:39more than we're scared of Hashem who's watching every single thing that we do. That's what Rabbi Yochanan was teaching us. As we all know, someone reaches adulthood to a certain extent; for a girl, it's at 12, and for a boy, it's at 13, Bar Mitzvah. Until that time, any sin they commit is attributed to their parents. Which is the reason why one of the brachot, the father says at the boy's bar mitzvah is that he gets rid, you know, that I get rid of myself of this responsibility. Meaning that if the eight-year-old played with a video game on Shabbat, the sin goes to the father. If the 11-year-old girl ate chametz on Pesach, it goes to the parents. There's only one sin: wasting seed, and that stays on his account, it doesn't go to his parents.

15:41goes to their account, to the child's account, to the boy's account, under the age, at any age whether he's two years old, if it's possible, or he's 11, or he's 12, or he's nine. Wasting seed stays on his account and doesn't go to his parents. A person under the age of mitzvot is not held accountable for his sins except for this one. For Er and Onan were under the age and got punished. You remember the punishment they received a moment ago that I mentioned. As we know, each of the limbs, each of the mitzvot, we have 613 mitzvot, corresponds to each one of our body parts. Wasting seed defiles all of them. Each sin affects one body part, which is the reason why certain people who know Kabbalah, if you tell them that someone has a medical problem, and you tell them what hurts, they can tell you exactly what sin you need to rectify, what sin you need to do teshuva for, in order for it to stop. They know the body, they know the sins, they understand things that are not known in the medical world. But regarding the wasting of seed, if someone wastes seed,

17:04It's all of them. All 613 mitzvot. All 613 parts. If someone is praying a lot, he wants yeshuah from Hashem, he wants salvation. HaKadosh Baruch Hu, I need a job. HaKadosh Baruch Hu, I need parnassah. HaKadosh Baruch Hu, I need a wife. I need something. I need to stay alive. His prayers are not accepted. Waste seed. Prayer has gone to deaf ears. You can pray from here to tomorrow. It won't make a difference. So, is there a point to pray? Of course, there's a point to pray. You can't make it worse, and you can't make it better. No, it's just that your prayer is not answered. Meaning you can pray, you're doing the mitzvah of praying. But as far as getting what you want, why would you expect to get what you want if every day you're spiritually causing harm by creating negative forces? So the prayers are not answered.

18:42Each time a person commits this sin, he causes the creation of an innumerable amount of klipot that take on the image of pigs and dogs. Thus, the demons the person creates apparently resemble pigs and dogs. Someone who dies without doing teshuvah for the sin of Pgam HaBrit should know, when they arrive at Gehinnom, it's a desolate, boiling wasteland. We'll leave the Gehinnom part aside for now. I think you're sufficiently warned, hopefully. They get to Gehinom, which is a wasteland, a boiling wasteland. We'll leave the Gehinom part at that. I think you're scared enough, hopefully.

19:48Each time something bad happens to someone, they always tend to blame Hashem. David HaMelech wanted to remind us of that each day. In our tefillah... Each time someone has something bad happen to him, they always blame God. David HaMelech wanted to remind us of that each day. In our tefillah,

21:08Of Mincha, we read Tehillim, Tehillim 25 after the Amidah. At one point, it says David HaMelech is crying to Hashem. See my affliction and how much I struggle. For what sins? What sins did I make? Look at my enemies and how great they've become and how much violent hatred they have against me. This is the same thing as us.

22:10We lose a little bit of money. The girlfriend leaves us. The job's not good. This is not good. Complain to Hashem. What's the difference? David actually didn't commit a sin. So he's actually asking Hashem, What did I do? Did I have these enemies? If you're crying out to Hashem about all the things that are happening, you better be ready. You better have a really good reason. Because all you're doing when someone makes a sin like this is committing a terrible wrongdoing. And telling Hashem, "What sin did I make that you're punishing me like this?" You get even more punishment for the chutzpah. "Why am I punishing you? You just killed 300 of My boys this morning, another 300 million of them this afternoon, and you're planning to kill another 300 million later tonight? And you're asking Me why you don't have any money?"

23:31Money's coming out of you every day. As we all know, parnassah comes from the children. People that are worried about having enough money to have kids, it's the biggest thing that people have no idea about. Each child comes with a parnassah. So that means that if someone has four kids, And I say, listen, I don't know if we can afford a fifth child. Maybe we should go to the rabbi. Maybe he could give us permission not to have any more children, even though we have four boys and we're supposed to have at least one boy and one girl. But maybe we can get a discount or something from the rabbi. He could just say four boys are like one boy and one girl. You know, make a new halacha for us, special. We don't have money. We don't have money. Little do they know that the fifth kid that's waiting, that the neshamah that's waiting in the chamber upstairs, comes with a million and a half dollars. They don't know. Why? Because they think everything is in their hands. The parnassah is in their hands. Every time someone wastes seed...

24:53They're also wasting that million and a half dollars. They're also wasting the billion dollars. They're also wasting this world. Not just talking about the next world. Next world, Hashem Yirachem. They're literally creating for themselves the worst type of Gehenom there is. One of these types of Gehenoms that doesn't end. Ever. People don't believe in eternal punishment. They think, nah, Kvod HaRav. You're a machmir. Too much. Where does it say in the Torah it is eternal punishment? Where does it say it? As we all know, we have Torah Shebichtav and Torah Shebe'al Peh. The Written Torah and the Oral Torah. I couldn't bring all of my books, so I have to put some on my phone. You go to Gemara, Masechet Rosh Hashanah, page 17a.

25:54Wrongdoers of Israel who sin with their body—sounds familiar, right? And wrongdoers of the Gentiles who sin with their body—also sounds familiar. They go down to Gehenom and are punished there for 12 months. This is, if someone, the reason why I even read this Gemara initially. Because someone told me, "No, look, see, the first verse over here means that they just get punished for 12 months." If you would have read the rest of the Gemara, it would have a different understanding. This first 12 months is the trial. After 12 months... Their body is consumed and their soul is burned, and the wind scatters them under the soles of the feet of the righteous. As it says, "And you shall tread down the wicked and they shall be as ashes under the soles of the righteous, of your feet." But as for the minim, minim are like idol worshippers. And for the informers,

27:16and for the scoffers who rejected the Torah and denied the resurrection of the dead, and those who abandoned the ways of the community, and those who spread their terror in the land of the living, and who sinned and made the masses sin like Yeravam the son of Nevat and his fellows. These will go down to Gehinnom and be punished there for all generations. As it says, and they shall go forth and look upon the carcasses of the men that have rebelled against Me. This means Gehinnom will be consumed, but they will not be consumed. In other words, Gehinnom will eventually end when the Mashiach comes, and there will be no more Gehinnom, except for their part of the Gehinnom. That continues forever. Why all this? Why such a severe punishment? Because they laid their hands on a temple. As it says, "I have surely built Thee a house of habitation."

28:41As you can see, the wasting of seeds fits several of the descriptions. So it's not just a perush, like some people think. Almost done. In Gemara Masechet Niddah, page 13b, they discuss this issue and whether a man is allowed to even touch that area of his body. They say, no, it is not allowed. Rabbi Yehuda HaNasi, also known as Rebbe, was called Rabbi HaKadosh. Chazal asks, why is he called Rabbi HaKadosh? Why doesn't everybody else know that it's a Kadosh? Because he never even looked at that area of his body. Even with his eyes, he didn't look. Of course, he didn't touch. So Chazal say, yeah, but what if, how's a person going to go to the bathroom? You have to wear special pants, okay?

30:09What about if you have a spike? A spike that hurts and gets stuck in that area of the body. Painful. The Gemara in Masechet Nida, page 13b, says it is better that his stomach will blow up and he die rather than remove the spike from that area that is hurting him. That's how careful they were to even touch the area. In the same Gemara, Masechet Niddah, page 13a, Rabbi Eliezer says it's better that one would tell everyone that all of his kids are mamzerim and get a lifetime worth of shame than touch his private part and waste seed.

31:15It's better that he gets shamed. Everyone calls him, "Hey, look, your wife was with another guy. Look, all your kids are mamzerim." And he can prove, "No, they're not mamzerim, they're not mamzerim." So it's better that he gets that shame his whole life than to waste seed one time. Shame is a big deal in Judaism. Someone who shames his friends in public, ein lo chelek l'Olam Haba (has no share in the World to Come). Someone who makes fun of somebody in public has no share in the World to Come. We learn this from David HaMelech. It teaches us the gravity of embarrassing others. To accept upon oneself the worst possible shame—such as people thinking all your children are from another man and your wife is a harlot—demonstrates profound commitment. It is so important to uphold this standard that one should accept it, just to avoid wasting seed. Why was Yosef HaTzadik called Yosef HaTzadik and no one else of the 12 tribes? We learn this from Gemara Sotah. He's called Tzadik because he didn't waste seed. It's so much so that when Potiphar's wife, the Gemara says Potiphar's wife, came onto him, and Yosef almost sinned. He almost sinned.

32:45But then he saw the image of his father, reminding him that if you commit this sin, one day when they have the Choshen for the Kohen Gadol, they will have to engrave the names of the 12 tribes, and your name will not be engraved. This reminder gave Yosef HaTzadik some Yirat Shamayim, making him aware of the gravity of the sin. The Gemara says he took his hands, And he buried him in the ground, forcefully breaking his hands, all the way to the point that miraculously the seed, which was supposed to come out from his organ, emerged from his fingernails. This was to avoid wasting seed. He is called a tzaddik because he did not waste seed. He protected his brit. The other 11 tribes did not protect the brit, apparently.

33:46A tzaddik, we learn from Sefer Yirmiyahu. I think it's chapter 15, Yirmiyahu chapter 15, verse 19. This is a verse I mentioned last night about keri, which we'll embellish on a little bit later. But from here it says, if you bring forth an honorable person from a glutton. So we learned that an honorable person is a tzaddik. Someone who did teshuva is considered yakar, honorable, precious. The opposite of "yakar" is something that is, obviously, "cheap." But here, we're not talking about price. The opposite of a "tzaddik" is someone who's a "rasha." So, if you take the word "yakar," which is "yud", "kuf", "resh," and you change the order of the letters, you spell the word "keri."

35:14which is what we talked about, which is wasting seed. The y'kar, the numerical value of y'kar, is 310. What's 310? It's the amount of worlds that a tzaddik gets in olam haba. Gets 310 worlds. That's what a y'kar gets. You can figure out what the Keri gets. Sefer Kabbalah wants to scare us a little bit more. It says that each time a drop of seed is wasted, there's a bad malach that takes the one drop, not the whole thing, just one of the drops, and uses it as a hostage to give the tumah more power against you.

37:05So, looking bad, smelling bad, aging fast, growing hair in strange places, losing years out of your life, losing Olam HaBa, eternal punishment, demons, nightmares, in so many words. Time to stop. How do we stop? Why stop, aside from being scared to death? How do you do teshuva for something like this? There are a few things. First and foremost, teshuva requires you to stop immediately. You cannot continue the sin even one more time. Someone starts, they don't do it for a week, two weeks, three weeks, four weeks, and then they fail.

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