SHOVAVIM Chidush From HaRav CHIDA (Why & How To Fix Wasting Seed Sin)

1:15About 250 years ago, we had a chacham named the Chida, Rabbi Chaim Yosef David Azulai. And in his sefer called Tzipporen Shamir, in Siman Vav, Se'if Ein, 670 to 74, he writes the following: Wake up the person that Violated his brit. He is destroying a lot. He is hurting a lot. He's hurting every part of his neshamah. You know, you have different parts of your neshamah. He's hurting every one of them. Every one of the parts of the neshamah is getting destroyed. Imagine there is one of these, you know, these ships with thick metal ropes. They have the ropes that they use. They're not like regular ropes you buy from, like, Home Depot. These ropes require very specially skilled craftsmen to make them, to tie knot upon knot. They're very, very thick. They're very, very strong. It's not like in the movies where one little knife cuts the rope. It doesn't really work like that in real life. These ropes used in ships are very thick. So imagine that in metal, even stronger. Now, imagine that connected to HaKadosh Baruch Hu. These ropes symbolize our connection to Him.

2:44All of the shefa, all of the reward, all of the good that HaKadosh Baruch Hu wants to give you, that comes to the different parts of your neshama, comes through this cord. Now, anytime we make a little sin, we, like, scratch the cord. A little cable, a little tiny thing comes off. So there's a little bit less that we get, a little bit less that we get, a little bit less that we get. You know, you forgot to do netilat yadayim. Ah, a little less now. You didn't put on tefillin for a week straight. Okay, you've got a problem. Oh, you forgot, you touched muktzah on Shabbat. Okay, you've got a little problem. You ate something not kosher. Okay, you've got a little problem. But generally, you're still connected. Still connected. You do teshuva, return. The Zohar HaKadosh says, the Chida is saying, what is he saying? That you're damaging this brit. What is he saying? He's saying when you waste seed, you simply take a spiritual sword and cut the whole cord. The whole thing's off. Not a small piece. The whole thing's gone.

3:55All of the reward that HaKadosh Baruch Hu wanted to give you on Rosh Hashanah, when you prayed and cried your eyes out, saying, "HaKadosh Baruch Hu, I want a baby. HaKadosh Baruch Hu, I want a wife. HaKadosh Baruch Hu, I want this, I wanted that, I want this, I want that." HaKadosh Baruch Hu says, "My son, my dear son, my daughter, I'm sorry, I can't. Why? You cut the cord. If I give it, it's going to go somewhere else." What is it like? It's like when a pipe breaks. As long as the pipe is connected, the water or whatever is supposed to come through it, the oil or whatever is supposed to come through it, goes exactly to the destination. HaKadosh Baruch Hu says there's continuous reward going. I'm giving, I'm giving, I'm giving. It's not getting to you, though. It's going to other places. Why? You cut the cord, the pipe's everywhere. It's all over the place. Goes to your neighbor, goes to your enemies, goes to your ex-wife, goes to your ex-husband, goes to your ex-this, goes to everybody else except you. Goes to bills, goes to the IRS, goes to medical expenses, goes to all of the problems in the world. You cannot keep a single dollar in your account. It's coming, HaKadosh Baruch Hu says, but it cannot stay with you. Why? You cut the cord.

5:09So the Chida says this Gama Brit hurts every part of the Neshama and in the signature of the king, meaning it's a personal offense to the King of Kings. And he's also hurting the part of the soul that's still in Shamayim. Whatever is here is also over there. He says even the one that's over there, the perfect soul that's up there, that other part, this is Kabbalistic stuff, don't ask me questions about this. This stuff, the part that's over there, even that's getting hurt every time. You're killing yourself. He says about this sin, HaKadosh Baruch Hu hates this sin so much, He killed Er and Onan, the two children of Yehuda.

6:10Who was Kodesh Kodeshim Yehuda? Two of his kids died. He says, even though they were only eight years old. So don't ever say, "Oh no, no, this sin is only for Jews." No, Er and Onan were not Jews. This is before Matan Torah. Judaism was only born at Mount Sinai. "Oh no, this sin is only for big people, only for adults." No, my friend, Er and Onan were eight years old. HaKadosh Baruch Hu hates this sin so much, He killed them at eight years old. Even though eight years old was different back then than it is today, and children were much more developed, nonetheless, the Torah specifically mentions that they were only eight years old. Chazal specifically mentions the age of eight to teach us that there is no age exemption for this sin. Hakadosh Baruch Hu hates it in every aspect, and that's why the Zohar Hakadosh says that whoever commits this sin, regardless of their age, will be punished for it. Other sins committed by a person before the age of 13 are not even considered sins.

7:13This is when a person is between the ages of 13 and 20. At 13, he is already a boy, a big boy. HaKadosh Baruch Hu has a lot of mercy on him. He only starts judging him at age 20 and after. This doesn't mean that below 20, he doesn't judge him; it means that he gives him time before he starts punishing him. He gives them more time to do teshuva for this specific sin. He already gets punished even now. Based on this sin, this sin was the one thing that caused the flood. Noah's flood. HaKadosh Baruch Hu destroyed the entire world based on this sin. There is no sin in the entire world that creates more demons than this sin, than the wasting of seed.

8:15Says, you make a mitzvah, you create for yourself an angel. You make a sin, you create a prosecutor against you. The angel is your defender, the demon is your prosecutor. That's one mitzvah. That means that your mitzvah creates something you may not see, but it creates something. You are just about to drink. You said a blessing, and you just created an angel. You had real kavanah (intention). This angel is very strong. You made a little sin, you drank without a bracha, you created a demon. No, but the Chida says something different. He says this sin, there's no sin in the world, in the entire Torah, that makes more demons than this. Why? Because it's not one demon that's created. Every single seed that comes out of the person's body is an individual demon of its own. It's a prosecutor against you on its own. Hashem Yirachem. You're talking about hundreds of millions per one action. This person that just wasted seed? He's delaying the Mashiach. Yes, he's delaying the Mashiach. The whole world is waiting for the Mashiach. Why? Because of you.

9:36because you wanted to have a good time at 12 o'clock in the afternoon with yourself, with your girlfriend, with your this, with your that, the Mashiach is delayed again because of you. So don't start telling me, no, no, Mashiach, Mashiach, no, no, Mashiach, stop wasting seed. That'll be better. All the songs. Because we see in the Gemara Masechet Yevamot page 63 and also in Gemara Masechet Nida page 13b that Ben David, the Mashiach, is not going to come until all of the neshamot that are in a place called Guf, which is a spiritual world where all of the neshamot wait to come to this world, until all of them are emptied from there, Mashiach is not coming. When a person wastes seed they're creating neshamot but no bodies. 63, and also in Gemara Masechet Niddah, page 13, Amud Bet, it states that Ben David, the Mashiach, will not come until all of the neshamot that are in a place called Guf, which is a spiritual world where all of the neshamot wait to come to this world, are emptied. Until then, Mashiach is not coming. When a person wastes seed, they are creating neshamot but with no bodies. So, what happens? They're not fulfilling their role. This creates a thicker klipah (spiritual shell) on top of the soul of a person.

10:59And this causes the greatest anguish and pain to Heaven and in all of the worlds that Hashem has, and it delays all of the salvation that Hashem wants to bestow upon the world. Woe to him, to his misfortune, and to his lack of mazal if he doesn't do teshuva. Because after he dies, they're going to take account of him for everything. Every single time he did it. Every single time she led to it. She walked around; somebody looked at her, and she became an image in some guy's head. He did it, Hashem yerachem. She had a boyfriend, Hashem yerachem. He had it, oh Hashem yerachem. Every single time. Not sometimes, not when you were this, not when you were that, not when you were drunk, and not when you were high. Every single time. He says, aside from the anguish that he will have over the sin itself, he'll even have a bigger pain, a bigger sorrow over the fact that we are now in the sixth millennium. Meaning he's not going to have time to redo this. There is no more reincarnation, no more "do-overs," no more second chances. This is your last chance. You’re alive; this is the chance.

12:24Bigger pain, a bigger sorrow, over the fact that we are now in the 6000th year. Meaning, he's not going to have a time to redo this. No more reincarnation, no more do-overs, no more second chances. This is your last chance. You're alive for the chance. They all can negate Yesod, and this 6000th year is the Yesod. It's the foundational thousandth year of creation, meaning it's everybody's last chance, and this whole period in the world is to fix the foundation of Am Yisrael. What's the Yesod? The Brit. The Brit is the Yesod. When you look at the Kabbalah, with different drawings that illustrate the body, you see that different parts of the body are associated with various concepts. The Yesod is related to the area of the reproductive organs. And his horrible actions are destroying this foundation. Here we see, Rabotai Yekarim, that Gemara Brit is not a chumra.

13:42It's not a stringency. It's not some mystical teaching unfounded and unheard of. This is the foundation of Judaism. This is the foundation. And a person that does not take the opportunity to fix this part of themselves is simply missing the chance of a lifetime. Because it's not easy and not cheap to fix it. Now, the first thing that a person needs to do to fix this is to understand that every single addiction, no matter what it is, whether it's addiction to immorality, addiction to promiscuity, an addiction to gambling, an addiction to drugs, an addiction to food, an addiction to anything, is simply, by definition, a desire, not a disease. and not cheap to fix it. Now, the first thing that a person needs to do to address this is to understand that every single addiction, no matter what it is—whether it's an addiction to immorality, an addiction to promiscuity, an addiction to gambling, an addiction to drugs, an addiction to food, or an addiction to anything—is simply, by definition, a desire, not a disease. The AAs and the like will tell you that your addiction is a disease. "Oh, you're promiscuous, that's a disease. You're an alcoholic, that's a disease. You're a drug addict, that's a disease. You're sick." No, no, my friend, you're not sick. You have an addiction; that's a desire. What's the difference between desire and sickness? If you tell me that my addiction is a sickness, there's no cure.

15:08You can't go to CVS, Walgreens, or the local pharmacy and say, "Oh, listen, I have a sex addiction. Do you have anything over-the-counter I can take to stop it?" There's no cure for that. If I have a food addiction and can't stop eating, will a pill, like Advil, help me stop eating? No, my friend, if it's a disease, there is no cure. This means that things will be miserable, horrible, and just get worse. You might think that leaving this world is the only option. But if it's a desire, that means it's within your power to overcome it, regardless of how strong this desire is. I know a student who used to be addicted to the most severe drugs. I spoke to him four years ago and explained to him exactly what I'm telling you now. But if it's a desire, that means it's within your power to overcome it, regardless of how strong this desire is. I had a student who was addicted to drugs—very, very heavy drugs, the heaviest there are. I spoke to him four years ago and explained to him exactly what I'm telling you now, perhaps four or five years ago. Explained to him everything that I told you. Baruch Hashem, he took it even further, and Baruch Hashem, today he is as clean as can be. He's now teaching other people how to overcome this desire—not the sickness. There are several people that I know who have an addiction to food.

16:29One person found out from their doctor that if they continue eating the way they're eating, they're probably not going to finish the year. Suddenly, the desire was under control. Suddenly, the desire became a desire, not an addiction, not a disease. He thought he was sick. He thought he couldn't stop eating until the doctor said, "You're going to die." And all of a sudden, the sickness became the desire. Sometimes, you need to get scared to death in order to realize it's just a desire, not a sickness. The Rambam writes that the strongest desire in a human being is the desire, the addiction to the desire for immorality, such as wasting seed. It is the strongest desire. Why? Because that's the only reason the body exists - for this purpose. If it weren't for the mitzvah of procreation, HaKadosh Baruch Hu would simply not have created any bodies. There's no point for the body. That's the point of the body. The purpose of a woman's body is to have babies. And for the male, his role is to provide the seed that will help create the baby. That's it. Other than that, there's no purpose for the body. Every other mitzvah, Hakadosh Baruch Hu knows what we could do without it.

17:44Meaning, the Rambam writes this desire is, in essence, part of the reason why you have a body. Hence the reason why it's so addictive. But the difference between us and animals is that we have to be able to control our desires. If you don't control your desire, Hakadosh Baruch Hu says you're an animal. So every single time, A person sins in this situation. They have a very, very serious problem. The most critical issue is that they're destroying their mazal. She walks around immodestly. She likes to wear things that are really tight or things that don't cover her whole body and the like. She's destroying her mazal. Even if she finds a husband, it's not going to be the best. It's going to be one of those "I wish I never met him" situations. It's gonna be like one of those people who's like, ah, I can't believe I was married to that guy. Yeah, but you're beautiful. He's beautiful. Everything is beautiful. Yeah, everything is beautiful on the outside. Like the celebrities, everything is beautiful on the outside. Inside, rotten. If a person is not doing teshuvah for this sin, his mazal is gone. The guy can get a job making a hundred thousand a month.

19:06100,000 a month is a lot of money. It should be fine. You should be good. You should have everything you want. If you don't fix this, you have a hundred thousand a month and yet have nothing at the same time. Why is this? You see in the world high suicide rates. According to the US government, it's predominantly among the upper class, among rich people, among those who make more than a hundred thousand a month. Over 70% of suicides are by rich people, and for what reason? Over 70% – you're talking about a ridiculous number. If you say, oh, 50%, 50%, okay, you know, whatever. No, no, no – over 70% are by rich people. How many celebrities kill themselves every single year, whether it be by overdose – intentional or unintentional? How many people are going to clinics for depression, for anxiety? They've made a multi-billion dollar industry to help people not kill themselves because they're depressed. Oh, I'm alone. What do you mean? You're married with five kids? I feel alone. Why do you feel alone? What's the matter with you? I feel like I have nothing. What do you mean nothing? Last night? Check your bank account. You have more money; the bank said you should open a bank. What do you mean, "I have nothing"?

20:24The bank is borrowing money from you. We may have nothing. I still have nothing. Why? You're making all this money because you don't have mazal. The real blessing you don't have, you're missing it. The money is going to the wrong places. The feelings are going to the wrong places. Hashem is giving you all the things that make you look good. But unfortunately, you cannot enjoy it. Every year they report the deaths who died in the last secular year on the who's who list, you know, the celebrities, the billionaires, and so on? And when you find out more about these people's lives—like there's one billionaire that died maybe six months ago, this guy David Koch. David Koch had more money than you could count, one of the Forbes 500, probably $40, $50, $60 billion, and You read the details of this person's life, and you say, "I think it's better than being gay." No, you go and look at some of these celebrities' lives—celebrity lives where they kill themselves, they die, whatever it was. You look at the details of their lives. We're not saying how many houses they have—why they can't take the house to the next world. I'm not saying how much money they have or the buildings. I'm talking about their real life. What are they going to be remembered for?

21:52No one's going to remember you for a building you built. No one cares. No one's going to remember you if you invented some car. No one cares. What good did you produce in the world? Do you see what good? It's a nightmare of a life, one after another. Why? HaKadosh Baruch Hu makes it so the shefa comes, but not to where it's supposed to. It's not where it's supposed to be. So this is an auspicious time to do teshuvah. Now, the good news is, if a person does Teshuva, serious Teshuva for Gemara brit, serious Teshuva for immodesty, serious Teshuva for immorality, they can get to the level of Ruach HaKodesh. And I'll prove it to you. What's Teshuva? Teshuva is Rabotai. First, stop. First, stop being promiscuous and stop being immoral, whether with yourself or with other people. Watch your eyes; don't even look at yourself. A person should never look at themselves naked, male or female, never. You don't need to look at yourself. What are you checking? If it's still there, if it wasn't there? I promise you, you'll know.

23:20There's no reason for you to ever look at yourself. Watching your eyes and not looking at the immodest woman, that's a given. That's obvious. You have to be, you know, in special education for me to explain that to you. That's a given. Of course, you have to watch your eyes and not look at women. I'm talking about not looking at yourself. That's what watching your eyes means. Watching your eyes means don't look at yourself. You go take a shower. You don't look; you just do whatever you gotta do. Use the sponge, don't touch, don't look—nothing. Why? Because don't touch, don't look—nothing. Don't be comfortable with yourself. That's number one, male or female. I know females will even have a bigger problem with this because they love to look at themselves, but don't look at yourself. There's no need. It's for medicinal reasons, health reasons, things like that. Obviously, if there is an issue, you have to do what you've got to do, but I'm talking about on a regular basis when it's unnecessary. Don't be so comfortable with your nakedness. That's number one. Number two, don't look at other people. If your local mikveh has a bunch of people thinking that they're in Rome and Greece, walking around naked, don't go there anymore. The Sefer Chassidim says places like that create more demons than mitzvot.

24:25Many of these mikvehs, people think that they're in Rome and Greece. They walk around naked just because it's all guys or all girls. No, chas v'shalom. You're in a mikveh, and there are other people walking around naked, you leave. Why? You're not allowed to look at them either. Yeah, but I'm a guy, I'm not attracted. It doesn't make a difference. You're never allowed to look at another guy. In fact, halacha, Shulchan Aruch says a boy is not allowed to look at his own father. A boy is not allowed to look at his own father. Needless to say, a stranger. That's halacha. You'll also find that in Yaakov Yosef. Now, why? It's not just about what clothes you wear, it's where your eyes go. Then, after you've watched your eyes, you're not watching any of this filth on the internet, on television, on phones, or whatever other tools the Satan uses sometimes. You watch your eyes, you stop the action. You have a girlfriend, you break up or you get married right away. One or the other, whatever comes first. You're not ready to get married? Okay, goodbye. Why? Every single day you're with her, you have a very serious problem with HaKadosh Baruch Hu. Whatever blessing HaKadosh Baruch Hu wanted to give you, you're destroying it. Yeah, but we're not touching. For now. For now. Next, a person needs to learn about this topic and become an expert in it.

25:52That's part of the tikkun itself. We have over 70 shiurim about this topic, long and short. And there's, baruch Hashem, a CD coming out and a USB coming out with all of those teachings. You can get it on the internet for free. You can get the CDs when they're out finally, baruch Hashem. The point is that every time somebody sends me the questions, "Oh, I have a problem," I already know what the problem is. i got to talk to you. There's no need to talk to you. I'll just send you the playlist. No need to talk. Don't embarrass yourself. I already know. Don't worry. It's okay. You're not the only one. I got a thousand others like you every day. Nothing embarrassing. Oh, I thought I was the only one. I wish, Shabbat Shalom, Mashiach would be here. If you were the only one. I'd come to your house and help you. Teach you every halacha and by the time the sun sets you're finished, but within a week you're the biggest tzaddik in the world. Who's one? Unfortunately, it's an epidemic. So first, you got to stop, then you got to learn. Learn everything you've got to learn about these shiurim and become an expert in them. Don’t listen to them like they’re music; listen to them like they're the most important thing in the world. Become kadosh; sanctify yourself. Kadosh, kadosh, kadosh means your eyes, your mind, your ears—everything only thinks about HaKadosh Baruch Hu.

27:06You cannot think about HaKadosh Baruch Hu if you're constantly wasting seed. It's not possible. You cannot think about HaKadosh Baruch Hu if your eyes are constantly looking at pornography, immodesty, PG-13 movies, or rated R movies. You need to guard your eyes and not let them go where they shouldn't. This applies whether you're a guy or a girl. To truly connect with HaKadosh Baruch Hu, you must strive to make yourself Kadosh. You also have a responsibility to help others. That's the next step. You have to take these CDs, you have to take these shiurim, and you have to spread them everywhere you possibly can. Why? You have to get other people to do teshuva to make up for the crimes you've already committed, because you can't change what you already did. You can stop future transgressions, but you have to get other people to stop. The best way to get other people to stop is not to do it yourself. Let me do it. Why? I'm an expert. You have to understand, the situation of a person that's wasting seed or has wasted seed without teshuva is a dire situation. What is it like? It's like somebody that's on a lifeline. He's on borrowed time. Every day he survives is a miracle. That's a person that's currently wasting seed. Every single day he stays alive is a miracle. Miracle, mamash miracle. Why? Because HaKadosh Baruch Hu, you did it one time and you're alive, HaKadosh Baruch Hu says death penalty.

28:32Penalty, that's what God says. You did it five times a week, five times a month, five times a day. Every single day a person is alive is a death penalty. So what's well, is a miracle supposed to be a death penalty? So what happens? You have to fix it. So now, how do you fix it? Don't take any unnecessary risks. Don't try to tell other people things that you're not an expert in. First, you have to learn it, and then you also have to help them do it. How do you give them a CD? Because if you have an opportunity, Hashem gave you the blessing. He gave you a friend, a classmate, or whatever that doesn't know what's going on. And He's giving you an opportunity to help somebody. And you have two choices. You can either give him a CD or give him a lecture, or you can talk to him. And you decide to be a superhero and start talking to him. And he doesn't like your tone. He thinks you're judging him. He thinks you're criticizing him. He doesn't do it. You just missed out on the neshama. This person is not going to do teshuva. You missed out on an opportunity to fix yourself. Now you need a bunch of those guys. You can't just think, oh, one guy helped him do teshuva, I finished everything. No, no, you have to get a lot of people to do teshuva. So what do you do? You give him one of these CDs, you send a shiurim, you give him the playlist. You make sure that you give him something that works. This works. How do I know? I know. If it didn't work, trust me, I wouldn't get all the phone calls that I get.

29:59And the people that do it, the people that do it, they're the happiest people in the world. Go look at the comments. Some of the people were so happy they wrote public letters on our website, on our YouTube page, in different places, about how it has changed their lives. Jews, non-Jews, male, female. Changed their lives. So you have to help people do teshuvah. Last but not least, you have to do tikkunim, which we talked about recently. Tikunim means that every single time a person has sinned, they have to give a certain amount of tzedakah. Why? Because this teshuva is supposed to hurt. Just like you harmed a neshama or neshamot, HaKadosh Baruch Hu says you have to give something in replacement. Money is damim; money is considered like life. So this tikun is painful. Now, if you have, you give. If you don't have, you don't give. Obviously, Hashem is not expecting you to do something you can't do. He's not giving you a mitzvah to fly in the air. Why? Because he knows you can't fly. He's not giving you a mitzvah to give a billion dollars and you're homeless. Obviously, he knows that you're homeless. But if you can give, you give. The problem is, a lot of people have, but they don't want to give. Why? They're looking for another way. Can I do it another way? Is there something else that I can do instead of money? Can I just fast? Yeah, go ahead, fast 84 times for every single time. By the time you finish the first fast, you're going to die.

31:27No, I'm gonna fast for three days in a row. Go ahead, my boy. Oh, five days in a row? Go, go. I'll come to your yahrzeit; I'll visit your yahrzeit. There's no one in this generation, not even the tzaddikim, that could do the amount of fasting that an average teenager is supposed to do. No one. Meaning the only way to fix this is with money every single time a person... Trying something else, this or that, the other thing, simply what they're doing is they're being penny wise and dollar foolish. They're trying to save a few pennies while wasting a bunch of dollars on other things. Don't be a chachamolog; don't be overly smart with Hashem. Simply, if Hashem gave you a blessing, do what you’ve got to do. You don't want to do it, my boy, go do what you gotta do. Again, I keep telling people this is not a moneymaker. This is for people. I can tell you that every single person that follows the advice of HaKadosh Baruch Hu always wins. Always wins. But unfortunately, people have a hard heart and they don't want to listen. One thing I can tell you is that every single person who takes the advice of HaKadosh Baruch Hu always wins. Always wins. But unfortunately, people have a hard heart, and they do not want to listen.

33:24Thank you.