Wasting seed - Physical & Spiritual Consequences & their remedies with Rabbi Amir

0:00The topic we're going to speak about today is a tremendous problem, a huge problem. The majority of the people in the world are connected to it, and the outcomes of this issue are extremely severe. We're going to follow only our holy sources: the Holy Torah, the Gemara, Tur, Shulchan Aruch, and all the explanations and Mefarshim. The Holy Zohar, Sha'ar HaKavanot from the Ari, the Rambam, Rabbi Chaim Vital, Reishit Chochmah, Taharat HaKodesh, and many rabbis from all generations until today, Be'ezrat Hashem. The goal... is to bring us to the realization of the result of this sin, and because of that, to wake up, repent, and strengthen ourselves in the ways of Hashem. Any person in this stage of life, meaning in his spiritual level, is in fear that knowing the effect of this sin is going to cause him to fall spiritually, and other sorts of inanimate fears bring him to despair. Please stop the video now. Go home.

1:15Our only interest is to strengthen us and to awaken us to do teshuva and to merit Klal Yisrael to a true redemption, ASAP. The topic we're going to speak about today is called the flaw of the covenant. According to the Kabbalah, it's also called the flaw of knowledge, and among the common people, it is known as wasting seed. Many people make a huge mistake, and they take this prohibition very lightly. Why? Because they're saying that this prohibition is not mentioned in the Holy Torah specifically and directly. B'ezrat Hashem, we're going to bring and come to an understanding that it is nonsense to think like that. This sin is so severe that Er and Onan, the children of Yehuda from the twelve tribes, died only because of that sin, with no earlier warning even. As it says in Bereshit, Er, the first son of Yehuda, was evil in the eyes of Hashem, and Hashem caused him to die. tribes, died only because of that sin, with no earlier warning even. As it says in Bereishit, Er, the first son of Yehuda, was evil in the eyes of Hashem, and Hashem caused him to die.

2:21Two pesukim later on, it speaks about Onan, his brother, who came to do yibum to the widow of his brother. And it says like that in our Holy Torah. And Onan knew that it would not be his offspring if he were to come upon his brother's wife. the widow, so whenever he consorts, he spills his seed on the earth not to provide offspring to his brother, the dead brother, and it was evil in the eyes of Hashem what he did, and He killed him also. And Rashi explained on the death of Er, exactly like the evil of Onan who spilled his seed on the earth. As he says, "And He killed him also," the death of Er was the result of Onan wasting seed. Rabbeinu Bechaye explained there that from this we learn, We all learned that every person who wastes seed in vain is liable for death, right?

3:31And this misconduct, this corruption, is the sin of the generation of the flood, and it is said about it, "Since all flesh had corrupted its way upon the earth." Also, the generation and people of Sodom; the people of Sodom were wicked and sinful towards Hashem exceedingly. Again, our goal is not to bring anybody to despair or weakness, but to awaken us to the magnitude of the damage from this sin, and to be able to get stronger, truly strong, to do real teshuva and fix what a person has, chas v'shalom, defected. In the Holy Zohar, there is a very, very, very, very scary part. In parashat Vayechi, it says, Rabbi Yehuda said, there is no sin in the world that doesn't have an ability to do repentance on it, besides this one, spilling seed. And there is no wicked guy that's not going to see the face of the Shechinah, except...

4:42A person that's spilling seed. So, wait a second. According to this Zohar HaKadosh, are the doors of repentance closed? Almost entirely to the whole Klal Yisrael? The whole world? No way on earth. Because we learn in the Gemara, in the Yerushalmi, that nothing stands in the way of any penitent, any person who repents. And David HaMelech said in Tehillim, "You have forgiven the iniquity of Your people; You have covered all their sin." And Yechezkel HaNavi said, "If a wicked person turns back from his wickedness and acts with justice and righteousness, he shall live for his acts." He shall live for his acts. Also, the generation of the flood was destroyed because they were wasting seed. As Rabbeinu Bechaye said, all of them would corrupt their seed. And he explained also, since they, the generation of the flood, damaged the seed of a man, which is created in 40 days,

5:51That's why the punishment was measure for measure, to be destroyed in the water of the flood, 40 days and 40 nights, exactly as the time it would take for the fetus to be conceived. And we learn in the Midrash that Rabbi Huna in the name of Rabbi Yossi said, for 120 years Hashem would warn the generation of the flood. Maybe they're going to do teshuva, repent. So, Baruch Hashem, we see we can do teshuva for everything, including this sin. Okay? It's not simple. The Zohar HaKadosh said it's a problem. So, Reshit Chochma explained to us that there is nothing that cannot be fixed by teshuva. Nothing. And what the Zohar HaKadosh said that it's not dependent on teshuva, on repentance, that means that this teshuva is very, very hard. And even that, that this teshuva is hard, in the words of the Zohar, this is part of the thing that makes the teshuva hard. Because they show you that it's not dependent on teshuva, but actually it is.

6:54And there's nothing that stands in front of teshuva. And even if you hear a heavenly voice come and say, "Repent, O rebellious children, except for Acher," exactly, don't listen to this heavenly voice. Because it's one of the things that makes it hard for you. It's on purpose. And we know that Chazal said to us, everything that the Landlord, Hashem blesses you, says to you, do. Except, get out. See, I don't listen to you. I'm staying. I'm going to do teshuva. This is Chazal. Everything Hashem said, do, except leave. No, I'm going to do teshuva, I'm coming back. So we see from here, Baruch Hashem, we can do teshuva. But again, don't get confused, right? A little bit softer, this issue, but the severity of spilling seed, it's tremendous, exactly as we learned from the Zohar, that this is almost impossible to do teshuva for, but you're going to see that you can. We're going to speak about everything soon. We brought the sources of the Torah not in chronological order, and there we spoke of the death of Er and Onan, right away, no warning. The generation of the flood, since they corrupted all flesh on earth, the people of Sodom that were wicked and sinful in front of Hashem, and we learned that they were steeped in forbidden sexual relations.

8:15All that you can imagine, and don't they did in bed, is please explain to us that from the words of the Ari that the generation of Sodom were the reincarnation, the gilgul, of the generation of the Flood and bring an earlier source to the problem of spilling seed, the severity of it and the descending of... Origin of it, and he said to us, inshallah, cover nothing should know. The klipot in the slavery of Egypt were in the aspect and concept of the same sparks that Adam HaRishon expelled in the 130 years that he was expelled from Gan Eden. Then he went to the river Gihon for 130 years, and in these 130 years, he spilled seed. As we're going to learn, also the generation of the Flood corrupted their seed. exactly as the root, Adam HaRishon, that they were carved and created from him until they were erased. Because the keri, spilling seed, is called evil in the eyes of Hashem. As the pasuk said, Vayei Er, the first son of Yehuda, wicked, ra, in the eyes of Hashem. So right now I'm going to go back to the early source, Adam HaRishon,

9:33and the pasuk says, and Adam HaRishon was living for 130 years, and he begat in his likeness and image, and he called his son Sheth. That means that until now it was not in his image. And Rabbeinu Bechaye explained that all these 130 years that he didn't come to his wife, and he was immersed in the river of Gihon, feminine spirits would come to him and warm, from him, and he would spill seed, and they would give birth, sort of, for male, and vice versa, which nobody speaks about it, with Chava — female, male, sorry, spirits, negative, came to her, and they created damagers, feminine. And Rabbi Yirmiyah ben Elazar said all those years that Adam HaRishon was in excommunication in the river, he gave birth to damagers, demons. By the way, the prohibition is not only to Jews; it's also to Bnei Noach and all the world. And the Tosafot explained that a person who's obligated on the mitzvah of pru u'rvu (be fruitful and multiply) is also obligated not to damage it. And also, we learned that the generation of the flood died because of that. That means everybody is not allowed to do it. Since we're mentioning the Gemara, we're going to segue right now to Masechet Nida.

11:00Rabbi Eliezer said in Masechet Niddah, every man who grabs his organ and urinates is condemned as if he brought a flood to the world. Why? Because he's touching, he's going to get excited, and he's watching something going to happen at night. As it says also in the Pasuk, that they corrupted all flesh in the flood. and they said in warm boiled water they destroy. Why? Because the sperm is hot, and you need to get excited with the body. So also, they died in boiling water in the flood. And the mother continues and says to us, if you're holding your organ, automatically you make yourself wicked in front of the Omnipresent, because in the end, you're going to come to discharge seed. Rabbi Yochanan said every person... Okay? Spilling seed is liable to death. Again, we're not trying to scare anybody. We're just bringing the result. If you got mice in the house, not to take care of it is crazy. You call the exterminator with all the poison and everything, right? You damage, you need to fix it. Don't leave it. Free publicity. Okay? And the origin for this...

12:07Vayera b'enei Hashem, as we said, on Er, the son of Yehuda. What he did, spill seed, and He killed him right away. Rabbi Yitzchak v'Rabbi Ami said, as this guy, he spills blood. As it says, "you who indulge in lust under every kind of tree, slaughters of the children." And the Chazal said to us, don't read "shokhtei" (slaughters), but rather "sohtei" (the one who extracts). the kids out. Rabbi Assi said to us that if you speak in a manner resembling idol worship, it is automatically considered a transgression. The Gemara continues. Rav said, anyone who arouses himself intentionally incites the evil inclination upon himself. Call him to a war. "Hey, I'm here, let's do something." Rabbi Ami said, He is called a transgressor because this is the craft of the Yetzer Hara. Today he says, "Touch this, do this, small thing here, small thing there." And then he says to you, "Do idol worship," and you mess up. Rabbi Ami said that every person who brings himself to sinful thoughts, even if it is only a thought, will not be admitted to the revelation of Hashem. Only a thought.

13:21Why? Because I thought when I bring you at the end to an action, even not willingly. Rabbi Elazar said, what it says, your hands are full with blood, he said, these are the ones who perform promiscuous acts with their hands. In the Beit Midrash of Rabbi Yishmael they said, not enough, on the mitzvah you shall not be promiscuous, you shall not abide promiscuously. with your promiscuous hand or leg. Don't think too much. We're going to try to focus on this prohibition of "you shall not be promiscuous," because we're speaking about it. In the Sefer Mitzvot HaKatzar, Seif 110, it says about this pasuk, a man should not reveal the nakedness of close relatives, and he opened it up and explained to us that you should not do anything, don't do anything that brings yourself to sinful thoughts, and you're not allowed to bring, to spill seed. And this is a tremendous sin, he says. And this is already learned from a mitzvah from the Torah. Straightforward. So, b'ezrat Hashem, we found out and proved that the origin of this prohibition is in our Holy Torah. It's not some kind of man-made. And we already brought a few concepts from our Gemara that speak about the prohibition of it. And we're going to continue. Some people say, but it's hard!

14:48The problem is when it's hard. But yes, it is hard. Lust is crazy. People, it's an addiction. People, I don't know what they do with themselves, they say. And true, they are right. But the Gemara says to us, there is a small organ in a male. The one who starves it becomes satisfied, and the one who satiates it becomes hungry. It could be that all the beginnings are hard, but bottom line, we have no choice. We're going to bring a few sources again from the halacha. We're going generation to generation to understand the severity in that it's going through all the orders from the Torah, Gemara, and halachot. For sure, there are many fences, prohibitions, and restrictions. We're going to try to stick only to the prohibition of spilling seed. The Rambam is straightforward, no games. You're not allowed to spill seed. Clear? Later on, in the same Rambam, it states that one is not allowed to arouse oneself intentionally. Don't come, sorry, to an erection, or bring yourself to sinful thoughts. Additionally, we bring another prohibition: a man is not allowed to send his hand downstairs. What are you going to do there?

16:04The two say to us, again, clear-cut and explicit: not allowed to spill seed. Shulchan Aruch, later on, in later generations, repeats the words of the two and adds: this is the worst, severe, the most severe sin in the whole Torah. And he continued that the one that's promiscuous with the hand and spills seed, not only is it a tremendous prohibition, but he is sitting in excommunication. Later on, he said to us, a person is not allowed to arouse himself. Again, we're repeating things just to understand that it's throughout all generations. A person is not allowed to bring himself to any thoughts. And again, do not send your hands downstairs. What did you lose there? The Rambam. In the Hilchot Deot, it says like this: The semen is the strength of the body and life, the light of the eyes. The more it is emitted, the more the body’s power is damaged. The strength of the person is diminished. He loses a portion of his lifespan. Exactly as Shlomo HaMelech said, "Do not give your strength to women."

17:21We're going to skip a little from what he said. And he said, the Rambam. Everybody quotes the Rambam about diets and other books, Jews and non-Jews. The Rambam for diet and health. So these are the words of the Rambam, the same one. The wisest of doctors said that one out of 1,000 deaths of men is from other illnesses, and 1,000 from excessive intercourse, spilling seed. That's why a person should be careful in that matter if they want to live in good health. Let's go back to the later Sifrei Halacha. Everybody thinks it's so easy, right? Repeat the words we said before: it is not allowed to spill seed. And he adds something very scary here. Sometimes, as a result of this sin, the punishment, God forbid, is that his children die at a young age, or they become wicked, and he comes to poverty. Poverty, not only money, also in knowledge and closeness to Hashem. You bring certain rectifications and watch how to guard yourself, you're going to bring it back to Hashem later on. It says to us, a man was created in the image of Hashem. A person needs to understand and come to an intelligent and clear wisdom that the lust that was created in a man was not created per se for the lust. Because automatically you can see all around

18:49Don't fool yourself. Automatically, when the seed comes out, there is no lust. And automatically, you ask, what am I doing? Where's the lust? What's going on? So the lust is not lust to do something and act like I don't know what. And again, I repeat the severity of the prohibition. It is not allowed to arouse yourself, not even to think because then I see the heart launch and the body part at night just finishing. We're going to change gear and go to Shaar HaKavanot. And we're going to quote the severity of the action and a few, actually two, fixings that he's bringing there. In the part that he speaks about Kriyat Shema al haMitah. And right there in Shaar HaKavanot, you should know that the main intention in Kriyat Shema al haMitah is to repair a certain sin, spilling seed. which is extremely severe, and this sin prevents the ascent of the soul at night to its Master, Hashem. And even though we spoke, he said to us the fixing, b'ezrat Hashem we're going to speak about it later on. Here, Kriyat Shema al haMitah, the correction there, b'ezrat Hashem, will help a person to fix his sin and not go into Gehinnom.

20:13and that they're going to forgive him for all his sins. But still, he needs a tremendously bigger kind of fixing to revive and rectify all the drops that actually came out and fell down into the wicked kelipot and be able to bring them back to holiness. In Oro Shel Ephraim, he explained this process, Rachmana Litzlan, to the survivors from the Holocaust camps. It's not that they were just free all of a sudden. They had to undergo very serious treatment, both physically and mentally, to rebuild themselves. They were hardly able to eat. so also those souls that come up are damaged and we need to fix them. And Sha'ar HaKavanot continues and says that since all the transgressions in the Torah, even the most severe, do not create damagers like the one who spills seed. The one who's doing others aveirot, don't think it's so likely. The damagers sort of come upon him and become accusers and prosecutors on him. But the one who's spilling seed, his punishment is way greater than all of that. And he quotes again the Zohar that on all the transgressions that depend on regular kinds of teshuva, it's called teshuva tata'a, lower kind of teshuva, except a person who's spilling seed that doesn't have a teshuva.

21:38only in extra effort, more than all the other things, and you're not going to be able to fake it. To see a person who spills seed easily all his life even after that, we're going to see what that means if you didn't fix it. And he explained that in this case, you should know that the person that's spilling seed has a higher defect in the thought where it's coming from. You think it doesn't use any vessel, right? And even if you use a vessel, you need it to be a kosher one. We're going to speak later on about it. And the punishment is tremendous because he's defecting the knowledge, the da'at elyon, of Abba Ve'ima. We're not going to explain these terms right now. Exactly, that's his action. It is male with no female, also supposedly in the upper world. He takes this drop from the holy soul, from the upper Male, and it's not going to go right now and reach into the Malchut. But what is going to happen is it will go into the house of the negative. woman, sort of feminine power in the world, and automatically it's pulled to the soul. This negative feminine, sort of the master of the outer forces, attaches to the soul in the sperm. A damager comes from this sort of feminine power, and they become an entity, sort of a spiritual body to that soul. So automatically, what happens when a person spills seed is he takes this...

23:06Semen is a holy soul that is supposed to later on become his children. So what he took, he took those sort of potential children, and he mixed them into the sitra achra, the outer forces' power, and they got sort of covered with bodies, spiritual of outer forces, that's made from the side of the serpent, the snake. And automatically, what he did, he took holiness, boom, threw it down... into the outer forces. And again, we're not trying to create fear. We're trying to awaken people. And please, don't let the evil inclination say, "I'm doomed." No, you're not doomed. You're close to being doomed, but not. But exactly as they say in Breslov, "If you believe you can destroy, believe you can fix." Always. The Shulchan Aruch will not continue and say to us, to be able to fix this sin, you need... To destroy, kill those bodies of impurity that cover and dress the holy soul. And by that, the soul is going to be able to run away and come back to the root in holiness. And we learned that we need two intentions in Kriyat Shema, at bed, and also in this fixing.

24:19kill those entities, the bodies, and bring back the souls to the upper feminine, to Nukva, the Nukva Elyona, of holiness, and then they're going to be fixed and purified, and then they're going to be sent down in this world as all the other souls, in reincarnation, doesn't make a difference how, but in a normal way of the creation. We're not going to, as I said before, we're not going to explain the terms of the Kabbalah. We're just going to try to create a simple picture of what we're speaking about. The Torah is endless. Any person who wants, he tries, and he should, to deepen his learning, and by that, fix his actions. That's all. Rabbi Chaim Vital brings the Zohar in Parashat Balak on the pasuk, "will not lay down until it consumes prey." And he said that this speaks of the thousands and tens of thousands of damaging forces that a person can kill every night by Kriyat Shema al HaMitah. Unbelievable, huh? Look at this beautiful thing. Ten thousand a person can kill in one night.

25:25and a person needs to have kavanah (intention) in every Kriyat Shema al HaMitah to rectify this and kill all those damaging forces. One person can be very strong, right? You can do deadly damage, very big damage, and you can kill many of those. Some of them are weak; they cannot kill tens of thousands. And he said that one can kill automatically over 125,000 and more in one night if you have the ability and knowledge. and that's going to come only with Kabbalah, but we're not dealing with that right now. Rabbi Chaim Vital continues, and he awakens us to the severity of this punishment, of this sin, sorry. Keri, seminal emission, wasting seed in vain. ...severe than killing others and being a murderer. And again, nobody is allowed to kill anybody. It's not an excuse; it's more severe. One is not allowed to kill anybody, but this sin is more severe than killing another person because the blood of him and his offspring, which doesn't have an end, he spilled their blood. That means not only is he a murderer right now, but he is also murdering his own children.

26:36And even young boys are in the prohibition because we learned that Er and Onan died. And they died at a very young age if you're going to go to the Torah and check. And the source is the Zohar HaKadosh. And if you're going to say that wicked people who killed others, all of them go up and he's not, it is a problem. They kill other people. And this guy, he's spilling seed, killed his own children. The Ohr HaEfraim brings another explanation a little bit to... bring it home, of why spilling seed is more severe than a regular murder. And he's saying that when you're killing a guy, and again, you're not allowed to do it, the body of the person will cease to exist. But what happens to the soul? Going up! And Be'ezrat Hashem, the soul is going to pass a certain procedure, what it needs, and come back, and you're going to become at the end to completeness. But when a person is spilling his seed, he creates spiritual children that will never be able to go back

27:36and complete what they need to do. The meaning of Yerushalayim, the custom in Yerushalayim that the children of a deceased person are not going to the burial of the father. Also here, one of my guys years ago, a Sephardi guy, S.Y., told me they didn't allow him to go to the funeral of his father. And the explanation comes from Rabbi Falaḥ: When a person dies, these rebellious children that he created escort him. to the cemetery, and they scream and say to him, "You are our father!" And they cry exactly as the physical children cry. And the main punishment they're going to punish their father with is on the day that he died. That's when they punish him also before. When they're going to take him into the cemetery, they hover around him like bees and scream, "You are our father!" And they cry and wail after his death. Because right now, when he died, he doesn't have a place to be.

28:39And they don't have anywhere to go to be sustained, to be living in their condition. And that's why they prosecute him and anguish him tremendously. And because these rebellious children, banim shovavim, are in rage, fear, and sorrow so great, they attack the physical children that come to the burial. the funeral. That's why Minya Yerushalayim and also others, I told you, the kids should not come to the funeral. Also in Likutei Moharan, he brings the disgrace after death, and he says, if a person is truly going to feel the pain of his sin, that means after he's going to remove the skin of the heart, and then his heart is going to feel truly this pain, and he regrets truthfully, because of the magnitude of his sin, also all the hearts of those souls that went down, going to feel it, and they're going to realize the truth, how they are cast in a filthy place, the depths of hell, because in the beginning, these souls, they're coming down, they sort of think, we're powerful, we can damage, we can do this. But then they realize that they're prisoners. They think they're good, in the beginning. And this is when the pasuk says, Hashem will circumcise your heart and the heart of your offspring, the spiritual offspring.

30:06It's a mistake. A person thinks, wow, you know, I should pleasure myself. Le'aneg, oneg, enjoyment, right? Because the Arizal says that this oneg, this bogus fake oneg of spilling sin, automatically becomes nega. Oneg becomes nega. The damages that the person creates cause him tremendous suffering, and this is the claim that they come against him. You brought us here right now; you need to take care of us. The one who died brought them down. As we said, as a result, right now, they cling to him, drawing from him all the sustenance that's needed. And the suffering they're experiencing is not because they like it, but they hope that through the suffering, they're going to wake up and realize that they need to save them, because this is the obligation of the father, to tear the body, the prison, that they are in, and change them from a damaged scenario, and then they're going to go back again to heaven, reconnect again, and life is beautiful. By a very simple kavana that we always sing three times a day with davening Shemoneh Esrei.

31:14Gathers the dispersed of Israel. Basically, this bracha is on the exile of Klal Yisrael among all the nations. The inner explanation is that this exile of Klal Yisrael is a reflection of the scattering of the holy souls from spilling seed and falling into captivity. into the wicked power of the world. And according to the Kabbalah, the last spilling seed is the cause for the first, the exile of Klal Yisrael all around the world. So what's the kavannah? Let's see. There's a pasuk in Iyov that says, "He devoured wealth but will disgorge it. God will purge it from his gut." The first three words, the first letter of each one, chet and then bet and then vav, create one of Hashem's names. Okay? Chet, and then Bet, and then Vav. The Ramchal explained that this name has the power to uplift the soul that fell down. Chet, and then Bet, and then Vav. If we're going to focus right now back to our Shemoneh Esrei prayer, in the second letters before the end of Yachad Mi Arba Kanfot, together from the four wings of the world, Yachad, Chet, Mi Arba, Bet, Kanfot, Vav, this name is created.

32:40By the way, the value of the gematria is 304, exactly as Shin Dalet. It's a tremendous thing. You just need to think a little bit when you're saying it, and boom, the effect is unbelievable. Just focusing on that name when you're saying the bracha can kill many damagers and release them. And it releases the imprisoned souls and brings them back to the origin in holiness. back to the origin in holiness. In Siddurim Sephardim, there is another short bracha that each one should try and copy if he's davening Ashkenaz, that he should go and just say it. I advise every person to go and check it. There's nothing in the world that can exist without nourishment from above, right? Holy light. What about these souls? that's captive right now in some spiritual prison, a body of damagers. So the Ben Ish Chai explained to us that the means of their sustenance come from the root of their soul, which is the man who brought them to this world. And it's found

33:51that he adds sin to the crime he did. Not only when he spilled seed did he create those husks, he actually provided for and sustained them. And while from one point of view he fulfilled Torah and mitzvot, on the other hand, he raised the power of those husks. And more than that, every mitzvah he does, You send them cash, like the Mafia. Everything they do, they take a percentage. Again, nobody should think, "Oh, so I'm not going to do anything." God forbid. Continue doing. We're going to see why. As we said, a person should not raise one hand. Maybe you should raise your hands and not touch somebody or your body, you know, a body part, before. But never raise your hand. Never give up. This time, Rabbi Zichron LeVracha answered a guy that asked, what should I do? How can I fix this damage? And he answered, he was already old, he hardly wrote any more answers, and he said, even though it's very hard for me to write, according to the necessity of this topic, I'm answering very quickly. And he's saying, any person who doesn't have understanding, including Kabbalah, he's not going to understand this topic. So don't try to understand it. Some things, it's not on our level. And he's saying, when a person sunk, chas v'shalom, in this sin, spilling seed, the influence that's come by his Torah and mitzvot, is sort of kidnapped by the outer forces, the sitra achra, and this is the exile of the Shechinah, sort of Hashem, providing to His haters.

35:20But the essence of the mitzvot and ma'asim tovim are not detracted from this person at all. Only the sustenance that comes due to the Torah and mitzvot is grabbed. That means he's not going to have any good sustenance to assist him to overcome this sin. It's sort of a limbo. And also that, only for the time being. Because after a person starts to fix this sin, he takes from the Sitra Achra everything they took. It's sort of like a bang. Take everything out. As he says, "He devoured wealth, but will disgorge it." And again, the first letter is chet, and then bet, and then vav, the name that's taking this holy soul free. The Tzaddik continued to encourage the guy, and he says, even though many times you failed, God forbid, what can you do? Anyway, on the contrary, if many times he was able to conquer and overcome the lust that's burning inside of him, he brings down, he showers light of holiness on himself and on all the world in a very holy manner, and a very great number of these holy sparks become free. Only overcome it for a second and he becomes in the aspect of Yosef HaTzaddik.

36:42Overcome it for a second. Okay, one by one you're going to fall down. Don't find an excuse. But only overcome it. Boom. It gives you a boost of energy. And the Rosh HaLefayim again explains to us, as much as the concentration of the holy sparks that you release, so you narrow the layer of lack of feelings that are surrounding you and you don't feel any closeness to Hashem. Beth Gnaza explained to us this: I don't feel close, I don't feel the will to do anything, and he explained how it's created according to the Arizal. And he said to us, every person has the Holy Spiritual Soul which is covered in the vessel, which is the body. And there's another one, an outer, surrounding soul, above. As much as we have a person doing an aveirot, the inner soul going down into sort of the evil realm, and the surrounding one right now needs to go down to replace the inner one that fell down. And this is the problem. Why? Because usually, this outer light shines on the outer walls of the body and connects to the inner soul light that is captive under the physical body.

38:01And it cannot overcome the body unless it connects to the light that comes from the outer one. Right? So right now, what happened? The loss is doubled. There's no upper light so strong because it's falling down inside. And also, because of that, you don't have any power to overcome the aveirah. The aveirah is going to bring another aveirah because you don't have the power. And the problem is twofold. Because right now, part of your soul went down. And this is pulling out, awakening to do bad. Two things. And he says that even though the damage of the soul going down and replaced inside in the outer sort of aura, or makif (surrounding light), this sin of spilling seed, the result is worse than anything else. And again, we just try to awaken to the severity of it to be able to take care of it. Don't give up ever. Any sin, he said to us, damages only one part of the soul, corresponding to the sin. But this sin, spilling seed, is different. Just as you create in the right manner a full body and a whole soul, with all the aspects, the whole volume of NaranChai (Nefesh, Ruach, Neshama, Chaya, and Yechida), into good, that's what you do when you're spilling seed. You create a whole entity of wickedness with all the body parts.

39:28And also, this is worse because, chas v'shalom, if a person's child does a sin, even though the children, physical children, are part of the essence of the father, they count as a separate entity. Why? Because they already have a physical body; they're disconnected a little bit. But not this one. Because this one, the spilling of seed, the trapped souls, they don't have any physical body. So they are part spiritually. of the men still, which are sunk in the evil world. And that's why the Gemara in Masechet Niddah that we mentioned before, says that one is not going to be able to witness the face of the Shechinah. Why? Because part of his essence, these children, these souls that fell down, are stuck in impurity. And that's affecting the entire structure. And that's why. How can you be with the Shechinah when, you know, one leg is there and you're thinking there? It's a problem. And the hint for this scenario in Chazal, when it says that every day a heavenly voice comes from Mount Horeb, Har Sinai, and it screams and says, "Repent, all you rebellious children." And the Arizal said that these rebellious children are the spilling seed, the drops, right? And even though the heavenly voice comes out and screams loudly, nobody hears. Nobody hears. Why? Because the power that spills

40:55toward bad is vanquished, becomes so strong, and you're not hearing anything else. It's sort of, you got the headphones, you don't hear. And it's not going to help you, but by extra teshuva, teshuva ila'ah, that means bringing tremendous upper lights, and then you're going to be able to regret and do teshuva. This is sort of gilgul sheleg, we're not going to speak about it right now. That's why he said to us, the Arizal, if obligated and needed tikkun, is fasting. Why? To subdue the matter. And then you're going to be able to feel something, and then you're going to be able to do all the learning Torah and everything that is needed. And Bnei Yissaschar explained to us a very beautiful thing. Spilling seed is called Avon, Ayin Vav Nun. Not only called Chet or anything, it's called Avon. If you're going to take the letters of the word avon, ayin, fully, ayin, yud, nun, vav, nun, we're going to come to a numerical value of 248. Ramach evarim. To hint that this sin defects the total structure of a person. And again, because of that, you need a little bit more serious teshuva, but you can do it.

42:09And again, do not fall into despair or bitterness because this is only from the evil inclination. There is no ye'ush in the world at all. Nothing. We can do everything. We connect to Hashem, and He wants us to fix. We know that there's two kinds of ways, supposedly, overall, in the service of Hashem. And right now we need both of them. The pasuk says to us in Tehillim, "He who bears the measure of seeds, walk along weeping, but will return in exultation, bearing his sheaves." Let's see. So, haloach yeilech uvach, or "walk along weeping," indicates breaking, the effort to try to break the physicality. Fasting, all these things that we're doing, affliction. But the main gain is not like that. Actually, the fasting is the easy change. The problem is to keep it on after that.

43:10And here, the work that is needed also is "bo yavo berina." We'll return in exultation. Be happy, excited. Fulfill the Torah with devotion and happiness, and, you know, be in it. Because then all the character traits that weaken you from the matter are elevated because you're happy in what you're doing. And you automatically uplift all your body. You don't just go and scream, "I'm happy, I'm happy." Make it happen. and in this sin, we need both ways: a) in order to break the barrier we created, and b) we need to uplift all those fallen parts to holiness by happiness. And by the way, when you're taking one of them, Many others are angry. We're going to speak about it later on, and they're just trying to escape, right? When you're breaking a door in the prison, many others try to escape, even though they know they want to break the door. And again, we're going to mention it. There is no despair in the world at all. And if somebody said to you that, don't believe him. Many people quote sources from Chassidut that say, in our generation, it's not right to fast. Okay.

44:21We're going to quote Rabbi Shneur Zalman of Liadi, the holy Tanya, in his Igeret HaTeshuvah, a small part. And anyway, every person who wants to come close to Hashem, again this is the Tanya, nothing can become more chassid than him, right? Every person who would like to fix and come close to Hashem, in the best kind of teshuvah, he should be stringent upon himself to complete at least once in his entire life the number of days of fasting required for each sin. Beautiful. This is Tanya. Okay? Chassidut, right? Don't do it. So I brought you the Tanya. Also in Pele Yoetz, if you speak about fasting, our rabbis said in Masechet Ta'anit, every person who fasts is called holy. And Sefer Tzippor and Shamir says, praiseworthy is the one who can atone for his sin. Many are the unique qualities in one of them, of fasting, that the Sitra Achra cannot cling to a person while he's fasting. As long as you're keeping out of rage. Usually, when he's fasting, chaos is coming and he's pushed. Okay, it's going to be a little bit long shiur. If you're tired and you want to leave...

45:38Anything you like. I'm not embarrassed. My wife many times thinks when I'm speaking, I'm a customer. Okay? So again, when you're fasting, the Sitra Achra doesn't have the power to touch you. And if any person, any spirit, would have permission, the Pele Yoetz said to us, to come back from the next world after it witnessed the punishment which is so hard and bitter, he would love to accept upon himself to fast a few days and nights because in the little you're doing here, and actually you chose when to fast and how to fast, summer, winter, and the little you accept here, the suffering that he has afflicted himself willingly, he deducts a tremendous amount of suffering in the next world. And we should learn from our Rabbi. It says, David HaMelech says, "my knees become weak from fasting." Rabbi Elazar, the Gemara says to us in Yerushalayim, his teeth became black because he didn't protest his neighbor letting her cow go with some kind of strap between her horns.

46:43Rabbi Pinchas, also his teeth became black from fasting, that he just said, I'm embarrassed by your words, Beit Shammai. Rav Huna fasted for 40 days because the straps of the tefillin, I don’t think the one that’s come here, but the one that’s on the head and close to the hand, were turned over. He fasted for 40 days. This is our rabbi. All our life we're learning from them. Fasting we're pushing away. And God forbid, if a person is going to be lazy to clean the garbage and the shmutz he did, he's going to get punished for that, that he didn't have mercy on the honor of the king. And at the end, he will be forced to clean the dirt he did, not favorably. Not in his favor. Shulchan Aruch said to us again, if he's speaking about fasting, siman... If you got a question, check there. A person who's sitting in a fast, if he can tolerate it—again, if you're not healthy, you're not allowed to fast—if he can tolerate the fast, he's called holy. And if not, let's say he's not healthy and strong, he's a sinner. Right now, I'm going to bring a little bit of a knockdown. The Mishnah Berurah said that this exemption, not to fast, it doesn't speak about the known sins. Mishnah Berurah, Chafetz Chaim, not some kind of...

48:03But if he knows that his sin obligates him to fast, even a Talmid Chacham is obligated to fast. And so are the words of the Bach, Beit Chadash. And we all know that the best time in the year to fast for spilling seed is the time of Shovavim, from Shemot until Mishpatim. And if it's a leap year, we add two parashiot, Tetzaveh and Ki Tisa. As Rabbi Chaim Vital wrote in Ruach HaKodesh, those days have a unique quality for fasting for spilling seed more than all the other days of the year. For sure, there are many, many, many, many sources, and we're not arguing with them for a second. that the Torah is the huge atonement for sin. The Gemara in Menachot, Rosh Hashanah, Sifrei, and many other places. And Reishit Chochma said, with all due respect, for sure it's right, but David HaMelech learned Torah way more than all of us, and he would fast. He was not able to walk, he said. And the Pele Yoetz advised, it's good that a scholar, Talmid Chacham, do both. And some year, or part of a year, Elul, 10 days of Teshuva, and for sure Shovavim, he should fast. And he got the learning of Torah, and the fasting.

49:23Reishit Chochma brings the words of his rabbi, that the portion of the Torah is not helping, but only after repentance, after teshuva. And he's saying, what the repentance, leaving the sin, and accepting the affliction after that with love. And the reason he says, because the Torah is the portion of life to purify the husk within, and the affliction to purify the body outside. But the Reishit Chochma said, supposedly it's not as he learned the words, and he said that the affliction purifies the husk within and outside, and the Torah, it's like a bandage. After the flesh, which is unhealthy, dissolves, you should put the bandage, and this is the Torah. But it's not supposedly going to help you directly; just putting a bandage on a totally sick thing without cleaning it a little bit is actually going to create a greater problem. The information on this topic is huge, spilling seed. We're going to try to narrow and focus, and we're going to start to speak about the damages, advantages if you keep it, and if you're fixing, and advice on how to be able not to come and spill seed. We're going to start from the damages that Reishit Chochma brings. In Masechet Kallah, a person who spills seed is counted as a behemah, an animal, and doesn't have a share in the next world. The Holy Zohar,

50:46In Reishit Chochma, he defiles himself and the earth. He gives strength to the two spirits that are called wicked. The Shechinah leaves the world. Again, Reishit Chochma, he defiles himself within and without. Why? Because the sperm cannot come without warming, stimulating of all the body. As the Zohar HaKadosh said, in all the sin that a person is damaged in this world, this is the one that defiles him more than anything else in this world and in the next one, the one of spilling seed. And because of that, he's not going to come close to Hashem, His vicinity, and not see the facial expression of Atik Yomin. Okay, we're not going to deal with it right now, the Kabbalah. He caused that the upper covenant becomes a slave. to bring sustain and shower good to the outer forces. And what happened? A maidservant who inherits her mistress. As long as he didn't do teshuva for this sin, he's not going to be visited by Hashem in a dream for good. And on the contrary, because the outer forces are sort of part of him, he's one of them, right? One of the guys. And they're going to come at night, and you know what's going to happen. They defile him a little bit more.

52:14Especially if a person wants to learn the inner Torah, Kabbalah, they're going to push him away and show him you don't deserve it. How? You're going to have a seminal emission at night. And the Tikkunim said to us, this is the gate to Hashem. This is the gate to come close to Hashem, Kabbalah. The righteous are going to come through it. They got permission, and others that are not righteous, boom, pushed away. The Tikkun in this for the same is not a regular thing to begin repeating because just bringing it home, even on a minor level, is very hard. But you need a lot of and unfortunately, many people who want to repent are going to be too lazy and think they can't, which is totally wrong. A person needs to do things above the regular place of teshuvah. Why? Because a person will deflect the covenant, damaging the brain. Because from them is emanating the sperm, and it is damaging Chochmah. Sort of, let's say, the sefirah. That's why one needs to do teshuvah from a higher place, which is Binah.

53:21A higher level of teshuvah. He damaged the higher place of regular teshuvah. When the sperm comes out, not in a kosher female, automatically the outer powers fall there and they exploit the soul that should have come. in a holy manner. And when a person later on is going to marry a wife, and he didn't do teshuvah yet, the right teshuvah, these outer powers, sort of feminine powers, summon all those souls which are oppressed under her, and chas v'shalom, his child is going to die at a young age. But, when he's in sorrow for the death of his children, it's going to be some kind of kaparah, like death from heaven, instead of him, the children, but he needs to do teshuvah. Don't just have sorrow and continue your way. Another prohibition that is a little bit unclear, but we're going to bring it up right now, is connected to what we're speaking about. Rabbi Chiya said in the Zohar, a person who spills seed is stealing from his father and mother. And who is that? The one who desires a lady who is not his wife.

54:32As we said, every person who enjoys this world without a bracha—in our case, the sheva brachot of chuppah—is like he is stealing from Hashem and Knesset Yisrael. Kol ha-nehenah min ha-olam hazeh, every person who is enjoying this world without a bracha, is like stealing from Hashem. And what that means is, this is the one who attaches himself to a woman to enjoy, even though she is unmarried and pure. And what's the reason? Because their connection is not with the Sheva Brachot. And this guy became a friend to a distracted person. Corrupted their seed, right? And he's saying, there's no seed in this guy. This corrupted guy. Why? She's not married. She's pure. I can do it. But no. He's corrupting. He's damaging the upper image of the upper world. And we learn from here that Even being with a non-married girl, pure, out of the wedding connection, it's prohibited. And I got this source today also from She'elot U'Teshuvot Beit Sha'arim in Siman Nun. I didn't read it, but the Rabbi sent it to me. And there are other sources that are going to come. I just want to bring it home a little bit.

55:51The Zohar in Parashat Emor says, every person who's spilling seed in vain will not merit to see the Omnipresent. And he is called evil, as it says, "You are not a God who desires wickedness; evil does not dwell with You." And the Zohar says, who is that? The one who does it with his own hand, or with a woman who is not kosher for him. That means even if she is not married, it is still prohibited. We're going to bring more problems and damages from the Sefer Taharat HaKodesh. I'm going to try to say it a little bit quickly. He brings 72 damages. We're going to bring only a few of them. Some of them we said before, we're just going to go with the order because they're very important, and it's always good to hear it and bring it home and not forget. First one, it's like he's bringing a flood to the world because that was the sin of the generation of the flood. He's liable to death. Again, damages and problems for the guy. And we learn it from Er and Onan. It's like he's spilling blood, and it's more severe because here he's killing his own children. As the Zohar says, "Those killed others. This one killed his own children." In others, it doesn't say, "and he was wicked in the eyes of Hashem," but here he's wicked. And on that, it says, "they betrayed Hashem, for they begot alien children."

57:18Very nice one right now. They're going to take revenge on him after his death. And the Zohar says, right? The Sefer brings: After his death, those rebellious children, spiritual children, come after his bed and scream, "Abba, bring us life, bring us sustenance." And they do not move until they avenge and take revenge on him. Unbelievable issues. The person who is spilling seed is denying the entire Torah. The entire Torah. The Zohar says, if you're skipping, you're not spilling seed, it's like you're following the whole Torah. He's faking. He's spilling seed. He's lying and cheating and faking the whole Torah. A person who aroused himself intentionally should be excommunicated because they're going to excommunicate him automatically in heaven also here. And his davening is not going to be heard for 40 days. But don't give up. Never. Why? Because even though the davening right now is sort of under a closed gate, later on when 40 days you're going to do teshuva, they're going to open the gate and they're going to run to Hashem like...

58:34a huge power ball of davening. Never stop davening. Even if right now you're in trouble, always at the end it's going to come all of them together. They're not going to bring him into the vicinity of Hashem. And the Zohar says all those souls—scary thing—although souls, at least after they did fixing for the other in the upper worlds and get their punishment, they come into the vicinity of Hashem. not the one who's spilling seed. Even after he fixed his punishment and got the damage and received the punishment in the other worlds, if he didn't do teshuva while still alive, he will not come into the vicinity of Hashem because of the magnitude of the impurity that's formed and applied to all his bones and system. He will not come to the vicinity of Hashem. Do teshuva now, don't wait. They're going to defile him. And the Zohar said, every person who's spilling seed on earth, or spilling seed not in the regular manner with the wife in the permissible way and time, all those damages, all those drops, come on this person and defile him here and in the next world.

1:00:00And we already said that they're waiting to punish him in the next world. As it is said in the Zohar Bereshit, they pull him into Gehenna. And Rabbi Rata said that there are different ways that Hashem can purify people without Gehenna, easier ways for the soul. But the person who is spilling seed hardens the punishment of all the other aveirot. Another thing, he's not going to be able to have, as we said before, holy dreams, and on the contrary, tamei (impure) dreams. He disconnects the connection that Klal Yisrael has to Hashem. As the Zohar said, the one who doesn't watch and keep the covenant, Hashem does not take revenge or take retribution on any other sin, as he does with spilling seeds. The flow of the covenant. As Rabbi Shimon said in Parashat Noach in the Zohar, there is nothing in the world that Hashem is more envious of than the obligation of a person to watch and not spill seeds. A person becomes defiled in the entire root of his soul in heaven above, in his body on earth, and in the soul within the body also.

1:01:26Because it's affecting all the sides all over the world. Also, Parashat Noach, the Zohar. And as long as Chas v'Shalom Israel doesn't keep this covenant and the spilling of seed, heaven and earth are not in existence in the right way. And there's no blessing coming to the world. Next thing, in the Tikkunim of the Zohar. All the ruling of the nations on Klal Yisrael is only because... A person calls an exile to himself, and he doesn't have even peace in his house. Because of the flow of the covenant, spilling seed, all the trouble and all the tests come to a person. And we learn from the Zohar, in this time, that this Shed is ruling over a person, a foreigner god, he enslaved himself, upon him, all kinds of afflictions. Supposedly we learn, very simply, even if you're doing other aveirot, but you don't do that,

1:02:31You're already on very good things in this world. Man de'avida garim de'akar nishmat. A person who's spilling seed, a prut, is sold from the private domain, from the domain of Hashem. And we know that the upper world is called unity. And unfortunately, they put him in the outer domain, which is the sitra achra. He caused the Shechinah to be in exile. The Zohar speaks about it; we spoke about it before. He lost his holy soul. As it says, the one who's not watching the Brit, again in the Zohar, what it says, "By the breath of God they perish." Because they didn't keep this Brit. The flaw of the covenant is harder in front of Hashem more than all the other aveirot. As it says in the Zohar, there is no harder liability in front of Hashem than one who spills seed and does not keep the covenant. His teshuva, as we said, is way harder than others, but don't give up. He is losing his image. That's from the Tikkunim in the Zohar. And we know that all this upper sustenance that comes to a person is only because of his image.

1:03:53And this is all he sustained, and he's losing it. That's why people go on living all their lives. And they can learn Torah, but it's, I don't know what. He has removed from himself fear of Heaven, as the Zohar says. If you're not watching the covenant, you're not going to care about most of the other mitzvot in the end. If he's not going to be able to do teshuva and still alive, you ready for this one? He's going to be pushed away from Mashiach, from the redemption, and for the 7,000 years to come. A person who's defecting the Brit, Chas V'Shalom, instead of Bereshit, it becomes Ateret Yavesh, a dry area. Because the emanation of the Sitra Achra increases, he cannot have any Kavanah, he cannot daven with any seriousness. He renewed the breaking of the vessels and so supposedly can destroy what thousands of years of people alive fixed; he can damage it. The fountains of wisdom of Torah are blocked from him. Many, many wicked things and problems and different negative character traits attach to him, especially anger and a lack of holiness. Because he warms himself with the aveirah, he becomes warm with tumah.

1:05:25Before we're going to speak about fixing, we're going to bring certain advantages from Taharat HaKodesh that a person achieves if you're watching it, keeping it. Again, for sure, some of them are the opposite of what we said. First one, the world exists because of him. As it says, as long as Klal Yisrael keeps this brit, all the worlds, upper and lower, exist. As it says, so Hashem said, if not my covenant, day and night, the laws of heaven and earth, I would not put and would not let them exist. Every time a person, okay, Exactly as we said before, if you're keeping the Brit, Klal Yisrael, no nation can touch us. Finished. We are above everything. It's as if he fulfilled the entire Torah. The Zohar HaKadosh says that every person who's keeping the covenant, not spilling seed, it's like he's fulfilling the entire Torah. He's meriting in the future to see mamash Hashem.

1:06:34As we're going to see in a different shiur, maybe what that means. No barriers. He enables the souls of tzaddikim from other generations when he's keeping the covenant, to join him while still alive and help him to do better and perform more mitzvot and overcome the Yetzer Hara. The Shechina, the Omnipresent, doesn't leave him. As it says, "I will see God from my flesh" because of keeping it. And we learn that this is the main thing: to be able to see Hashem, keep it clean, and Hashem is not going to leave you. Even if you're going to do all the aveirot in the Torah, in this life, nothing is going to happen to you. Smooth. No punishment. In the next world, you clean. But if you do this aveirah, this brings the fire, boom, for everything else. You don't do this aveirah, in this world, you're a king. Nothing is going to happen. In the next world, it comes as a boomerang. But in this world, if you're keeping it, no punishment for any aveirah. This is the Zohar, Shemot, Gimel Amud Bet, if you want to check by yourself.

1:07:58He became dressed, so to speak, by Hashem in special garments. By keeping the brit, Hashem heals him and his soul. As it says, "All the diseases I put on Egypt, I will not put upon you. I am Hashem, your healer." He draws many good influences. for himself, and to the world, and all the angels, and serpents, and stars, the zodiac, and creation depend on this guy watching his brit, covenant, to bring sustenance to all the world. Think how much it's going to help him. What does that mean? Hashem remembers and praises those people who are keeping the Brit every day. Hashem is going to praise you every second. Unbelievable. Because he's keeping the covenant, he's going to be called Tamim, unblemished. Yaakov Avinu was on a higher madrigah.

1:09:00But Hashem doesn't want us. Why? Yaakov Avinu never saw even one drop all his life. Right? But Hashem doesn't say be on that level. Hashem said be tamim. What does that mean? Watch it, and if you damage, fix it. He's become called a tzaddik. As the Zohar says, because you're watching the Brit, you are called a tzaddik. All the sustenance to the world comes first to him. He becomes like the holy day of Shabbat. All the sustenance comes to him, and from him, it comes to the world. Unbelievable. He's merited that his children are going to watch the covenant and become righteous. Why? Because if he didn't do this aveira, the outer forces are not clinging to him, and then they're not going to touch his children. the angels of destruction are not allowed to come close to him, and he's not going to go into Gehenna. We're going to see what that's meant also exactly later on. And that's also the Zohar in Bereshit. And we learn in Masechet Eruvin that Avraham Avinu takes from Gehenna every person that didn't defect the covenant. For sure, if he needs to do other kinds of fixing, there are other ways that Hashem is going to arrange for him, but easier than Gehenna.

1:10:12he is able to enjoy and rejoice in the service of Hashem. He is able to bring sustenance to the Omnipresence. And Rabbi Issa said, it doesn't make a difference who it is. Hashem looks kindly on everyone. That means if you're watching the Brit, Hashem counts and looks at you better than righteous people and many, many, many Talmidei Chachamim. He's able to be saved from the labor pain of Mashiach. Any plague, nothing's going to touch him. And we know that in the days of Mashiach, there's going to be the big refinement. The real labor pain is going to come: 15 days of darkness. So many people are going to die who do not deserve to be redeemed. The war of the wicked Armilus and the worst refinement of 45 days in the desert of the nations. And the guy who keeps the covenant, doesn't spill the seed, or if he did and he fixed it, he is safe from all of those. After the redemption, in the big day of judgment, he will still be alive.

1:11:25As it says, the one that's the remnant in Zion and remaining in Yerushalayim, holy will be said to him, and this is the one who kept the Brit. Hashem, this is an unbelievable one in the Zohar. Hashem will renew his world in the 7,000 from him. What that means, I don't know. But again, that is all. The one who's going to stay there, that means the one who kept the Brit. in them, to renew the world and be rejoiced with this person. His soul is going to come out when he's dying, not by the Angel of Death, but by Hashem. Because we know that the one who keeps the Brit, the Zohar says, the death is not touching him. He will die, but some kind of, like, kiss of death, sort of. A person that's keeping the Brit is able to accept Neshama Yeteira on Shabbat. Able, only if you're keeping the Brit, it seems. He's going to be able to go to Gehenna, even though he said not. But what does that mean? With no fear. And they're going to help him to take souls of others. And the main souls he's going to take are from roots of souls that connect to him. And it says in Tehillim,

1:12:41even when I'm gonna go in the valley of the shadow of death, I'm not gonna have fear. Why? Because You're with me. It didn't affect the Brit, and Hashem just takes him there to be able to serve like a magnet, taking other souls connected to him and taking them out. He becomes a partner to Hashem in everything because we know that all the world was created only for that, as He says, "If not for my covenant..." day and light, no creation. He becomes a partner in the creation with Hashem. He's able to have an image of God, and all the creations and animals have fear of him, terrified. Nothing is going to happen—no creation, no damages, or spiritual or physical harm. At night, when he's going to sleep and his soul is going up, they declare before him: "Bring honor." to the holy image of Hashem that's going up, and no damager can come close to him, and no accuser can touch his soul. He's not going to come back to dirt. That means his body is not going to deteriorate and come back to earth after death. As Rashi, as the Tikunei Zohar said, because of watching your brit, not spilling seed, they're not going to come back to earth. He's exempt from the beating of the grave.

1:13:59Again, the same Tikunei Zohar. He's able to connect with Hashem. He's able to get special divine providence, as it says, the eye of Hashem is on the tzaddikim, the righteous. And who's righteous? We said before, the one who keeps the covenant. In Tana D'vei Eliyahu it says, Also a mirtic, unbelievable thing. Praiseworthy is a person who has true Torah and has never had a spilling of seed, or has perhaps fixed it. Even if this person is a Yisrael, not a Kohen, not a Levi, a Yisrael. He is deserving to sacrifice an Olah on the altar like the High Priest. And he explained that every person would become lazy from the sin. become lazy. I'm not doing it right now. I'm overpowering. Automatically, heavenly light directly from the Omnipresent shines upon this person. Don't look. Omnipresent. Look. He's empowering the desire between him and Hashem. Because this Brit is going to awaken the closeness to Hashem. Baruch Hashem. We're in the stage of prevention and fixing. A few more minutes. B'li neder.

1:15:16Prevention. First thing: guard your eyes. Because, as we learned, every person who looks during the day comes to think at night. I see. The heart won't. The body part is going to finish, even unwillingly. And seeing is counted as niuf. And noef, the eye of an adulterer. And also in the Torah, eiyah kedesha, we're sort of the harlot. By name, on the eyes, on the way. Second thing: Be careful not to speak too much with any lady, even with his wife, when she's Niddah. As it says in Pirkei Avot, every person who has excess conversation with a woman brings wickedness, ra'ah, ra, er, onan, le'atzmo. Right, we said, ra'ah be'inei Hashem, spilling seed, chas v'shalom. Be meticulous in the prohibition, lo tikrav, don't come close to a Niddah. That means do not speak, try to avoid, for sure, any kind of touch. Anything that brings you closeness, stay away from it. Guard your tongue from speaking bad because the covenant of the tongue and the covenant of the organ are connected to one another. You're going to see the position of a fetus. A person needs to learn the Sodot of Torah Kabbalah only with the one who is deserving.

1:16:43Because the secret of Hashem is only for the ones who have fear of it. And chas v'shalom, if you're learning Kabbalah with people who are not deserving, they will punish you, and you're going to have keri, chas v'shalom. Be very careful when you're saying brachot. Because chas v'shalom, when you're mentioning the Name in vain, it can cause you to become tamei with spilling seed. Do not sleep too much. Not too long. And automatically, when you wake up in the morning, get up, do netilat yadayim, and start your day. Because unfortunately, check with your friends, The majority of the time is when you wake up and you're still lazy in bed. You need to listen to the words of Hashem and fulfill His mitzvot, as He says in the Torah. And if you're not, if you will actually go with Me with indifference, with keri, you're not going to listen to Me, Hashem said. And now we go with you with fury of indifference. And keri, we know it's going to exceed also. Another protection: follow the fences of our Rabbis. Because we know that if you break a fence, a snake, a serpent, is going to bite you. If a person took any vow upon himself, he must fulfill it, or at least go and try to cancel it in the proper way. As Kohelet says, "Don't let your mouth bring a sin to your flesh."

1:18:04And that's connected to all the other things. Don't have any bad speech. Don't curse. Don't be negative. Because all of those, chas v'shalom, can cause harm. Lo tina'af. You should not commit adultery. We're going to stick to the case with Hebrew. Lo tina'af. Tina'af. Lo tehanah. Not enjoy from your nose, from the sense of smelling. Don't try to smell any perfume or anything. I say try. Avoid anger. He will save those with downcast eyes. The person who is not haughty, doesn't go like this, he's down to earth. Also, downcast eyes, he's not looking all around. He's saved. And also a haughty guy, pushes away the legs of the Shechinah, sort of the Divine Presence. Be careful not to come close to touch the body part, the organ. Do not look at it.

1:19:04For sure, don't try to have any conversation. Because Rabbi was called holy, because he never looked at it and never sent his hand down. Be careful of any mixed and immodest events. Be careful not to beautify yourself too much. Because we learn from Yosef HaTzadik that he was curling his hair and eating and drinking. What did Hashem say? "I'm going to incite the bear upon you." Who was the bear? The wife of Potiphar. She was the chariot for the feminine outer forces in that generation. Be extremely careful from the prohibition of seclusion. deal with Torah. Because we learn in the Gemara, praise the Lord, when they're dealing with Torah, their evil inclination is given into their hand. Also, we learn in Yisrael Ba'ali that immoral thoughts can only enter a heart which is clean and clear from Torah. Don't think about other people's negative actions. Why? When you think about it,

1:20:15You get the image, and then you yourself become defective. Prevent yourself from sadness or from bringing yourself to despair. Have a will to become pure, because every person who comes and wants to become pure will receive assistance from heaven. Be careful to fulfill the mitzvah of tzitzit and tefillin. The Holy One, Blessed be He, would also sleep with tzitzit. Prevent yourself from eating excessively, especially before you go to sleep. Certain foods, especially, are not advisable before you go to sleep. Fatty meat, wine, milk, fatty cheese, eggs—no pizza, no good. Tikkunim, how to fix it. Be'ezrat Hashem yitbarach sh'mo. Ein ye'ush ba'olam klal. First thing, mikveh. Go to a mikveh. And when you go to the mikveh, it's right to think on the pasuk "Lev tahor bara li Elohim ve'ruach nachon chadesh b'kirbi." Pure heart, Hashem, create within me and renew a good spirit also.

1:21:26The Roshei Teivot, the first and last letters of the words Lev, Tahor, Barah, create two words: Taval, Barah. When you're dipping, immersing yourself in the mikveh, you create a new entity, sort of. Also, Barah, Ever, an organ. And Taharat HaKodesh said to us, you need to go to the mikveh with a simple thought to accept higher holiness and purify your soul from the filth, and impurity of the outer forces. Just think about it. When you're inside, for the sake of purity, just think about it. And again, don't say it when you're in the mikveh. Another inner thought, break your heart in front of Hashem, willing to do teshuvah before the mikveh. Because mikveh, numerical value, achna'ah, surrendering with the word. And he explained to us that when a person goes to the mikveh in kosher water for purity, All the outer forces, all these sorts of damaging forces, cannot be there. They're running away. After they come out, they come back, but they don't have the same strength of grip. Many of them are destroyed totally from immersing in the mikveh. In the case of surrendering, mikveh, numerical value of achna'ah, it's not only a person himself surrendering, but rather that when you're doing it, you're surrendering the outer forces.

1:22:51And another learning of the power of the mikveh according to Megaleh Amukot. Why is the mikveh so strong and why does it need to have 40 seah? 960 logs, measurements in the time of the Gemara. We know that ability to cancel a prohibition is 1 to 60, not the laws of the Torah. A person is created from four basic foundations: fire, water, air, and earth. Each one of the four is also composed of the same four, totaling four times four, which equals 16. Sixteen times 60 equals 960. Automatically, when you're dipping in the mikveh, your whole essence of 960, 4 essences made of 4 times 60, are canceled in 960, the amount needed for a kosher mikveh. Second thing, fasting. Shovavim, ta'anit peh, maybe sheleg, we'll see in a second. As we mentioned before, kriyat shema on the bed, lechatchila according to the kavanot of the Ari, each person according to his abilities. Cry,

1:24:09shed tears on the sin and the blemish of the Holy Covenant. And according to the Taharat HaKodesh, Rabbi Rata, zichrono livracha, on each drop from your eye, tear, you're able to bring one drop. And even though the gates of davening could be locked, they said, right? The gates of tears are always open. And David HaMelech says, "You have counted my wandering, Nodi; place my tears in Your flask. Are they not in Your record?" And we explain, Nodi Safar Tanodi, that means Nud Yud. Remove the letter Yud, four times the letter Yud from the name of Havaya. If you want to open it, it doesn't make it difficult right now. Removed. because of this sin, from the name of 72 letters, Otam Safata, You counted them, Hashem, right? The letters that I had blemished. Count my tears also, compared to them. David HaMelech. And also, in the power of those tears to bring other souls of different people, as we learned, when a holy soul, we learned in Sha'ar HaGilgulim, is going out from the captivity of the outer forces, the sort of souls around, their "roommates," are envious, and they're getting extra strength, boom!

1:25:23and running away. And the tear, the crying, should be for the magnitude of the sorrow of the Shechinah, the Divine Presence, and the exile, because of your sin. And Reishit Chochmah explained that Spilling seed weakens the eyesight. Also, as the Rambam we mentioned before, the physical and the spiritual are connected. When a person cries, his vision becomes blurry, and that’s why one serves as an atonement for the other. Another reason is that the main cause of spilling seed is what you see. As Chazal said to us, the Yetzer Hara (evil inclination) can only control what a person sees. And you need to be very careful when crying. As the Chozeh of Lublin warned, the evil inclination, when you see true tears, He aspires to instill holiness in a person's service. So don't think, "Ah, look, I'm crying, I'm fixing." Because, bottom line, it's negative. To become holy, for sure, you're losing a lot. And also, the tears are only one part of the whole picture.

1:26:35You need to be careful, he said to us. When you're crying, automatically you can become very sad and bitter. This is the evil inclination. Do not be sad. Feel sadness for what you did, but be happy about what you can achieve. Another tikkun, tremendous. Very easy, supposedly. Keep Shabbat according to the laws and rejoice in Shabbat, in holiness. The other thing we said before, the bracha of "gathers the dispersed of His people Israel," the letter before the last, chet, bet, and vav, is the name of Hashem, sort of, that takes these souls out from the gut of the outers, from the belly. We need to be, we didn't say it before, in the words, arba kanfot. Kanfot numerical value is 556. A co-element to the word "Tikkun," fixing. This is the simplicity of those things. If you want, go to the holy sefarim, so many of them, and you're just going to become stronger and able to help others. Another thing to fix is to be a sandak.

1:27:50For sure, learning Torah, engaging Torah, as it says, it's a tree of life to the one who holds and grasps onto it. And also, we learn that the Torah is healing to your flesh and soul. You should learn Mishnayot. It's a big fixing, a big Tikkun. Mishnah, otiot, the letters of Neshama, if you play with the order. If you can, it's advisable to learn a few Mishnayot by heart, if you can, as many as you can. Another tikkun, be very careful in all the attributes that a person is called righteous because of them. Waking up and doing the tikkun of Chatzot. As it says, that means the one who wakes up at Chatzot. To save the teref, what the external forces sort of grab from you, you take from them. Connect the day and night, and night and day, while learning Torah. That means you need to wake up before dawn. Maybe it's hard, but bottom line, this is a basic tikkun. Be first to shul. Run to do the mitzvah. Be ba'al tzedakah. Give charity. More than that, collect in order to help others. Not only give, collect. There's also a big embarrassment when you're collecting for others from people. Love peace and run after peace. Try to get an aliyah laTorah once a month. It's a big tikkun. All of these are tikkunim.

1:29:18eat the bread crumbs leftovers. Many people come and they say, come to Shulchan Shabbat, give me some crumbs, it's against poverty. It is right, but the poverty reason we said is because a person is spilling seed. So when you're collecting those sorts of crumbs, you're sort of collecting your spilled seed, and you're fixing both things, physical and spiritual. The brain, poverty, knowledge. You should do mitzvot with excitement, love, and fervor, especially the mitzvah of baking matzot on Pesach. We should learn Kabbalah. It's a tremendous secret on how to fix your soul from this sin. You should have downcast eyes to avoid the damage caused by looking around. You should try to bring other people to teshuvah. Help other people come close to Hashem. This is a tremendous tikkun. Because when you waste seed, you cast holy souls outside, but now you bring holy souls inside. Help.

1:30:26Tikkun Haklali, according to Rabbi Nachman, right? Avoid anger and rage, as it says, "Don't come to rage, no problem, going to come because of your flesh." Tikkun Chatzot, as we said, wake up and do the tikkun at chatzot, midnight, crying. Again, for sure, if you can, according to the Kabbalah. Eating in holiness, right? Berachot. Clean. Not like an animal. And the last one, we're going to repeat what we said before. And supposedly, this is the main thing, even though unfortunately many people do not do it. Fasting. A person must fast. The Ari HaKadosh said it. Nobody argues with him that this is the right way. Some say, tremendous, brilliant rabbis that we do not argue against them, that it's not for the generations. So, he brought the Tanya HaKadosh, who said that every person who wants to come close to Hashem must and should do it. If it's the fast of the Shovavim, Ta'anit Peh, with the Kavanot of the Ari, try to find a Rabbi who can teach you. There are different kinds of Yeshivot, whether it's Beit El or other Yeshivot, try to strive for one of them. I love Beit El, but that's my personal feeling.

1:31:46You need to do the Kavanot of Kriyat Shema in bed, as we said. And a person must do all the fasts that are connected to any damage that's come from spilling seed. any one of them, Chas V'Shalom Hanida, anything. And if you can, advisable, as we said before, is Tikkun Shelleg, to fast and roll in the snow, because this brings a tremendous upper light that releases many souls, and by that, you've got the power and sort of kickdown to come close to Hashem. The main thing also is to cling to a rabbi, learn Torah, fulfill the Torah, and have love for Hashem and believe in yourself. Because Hashem knows that you can do it. And the main thing, don't forget, there is no despair in the world at all. Even if the banished among you reach the ends of the heavens, I shall gather them. Never despair. Hashem is going to help. And He is helping. Have a beautiful life. Fix and help others to fix. Thank you.